Making a Change:

So I am sick and tired of this whole internet showdown. SICK of it. The people upstairs have been very unhelpful and refuse to let us help. In the middle of the week last week I had just had it with them and I texted them asking if they needed me to call comcast because this situation was just making me more than a little frustrated.

Each week I have about 20 hours of work at Pier One, 7 at Metro Brokers, and most of what is left is either sleepy-time or me going to school (though I admit, as of late I've been blowing off homework to play sims... bad Rachel). Personally, I can't work around the Library's schedule so that I can sit down and have some quality internet time. [for reference, the library is open 8am-9pm every day

After Michelle and I texting them over and over they FINALLY got this router up. Username: cuntnugget. Password: doucheface. Don't care that I'm giving this out over the internet. First off: CLASSY. Secondly: if you live in my area, take advantage of the crappy internet! Though, if you high performing computers, don't even think about trying to access the internet. My connection times out before anything even loads and I don't even have that great of computers.

Lately I've been taking to getting my assignments and required readings online, saving the pdf, and printing at home. Honestly I COULD live like this, but I'm paying them for internet. I should be able to have internet if I am PAYING for it. Thusly, as of the beginning of July I will be moving into Pi Beta Phi. They have internet there.

In other news, my best tv is totally ruined. Cindy, Ryan, Sean, and I were watching a movie and all of a sudden we heard popping. The screen started going fuzzy so we turned it off. A couple minutes later we turned it on and it continued popping and then died. RIP my lovely TV. Let this be a lesson to you all: NEVER EVER even THINK about plugging in ANYTHING without a surge protector. I thought it'd be okay until I found one later, but nope. Ben said he'll help me pay for a flat-screen or something. Anything that will play dvd's on a screen that's at least bigger than my head. I'm actually thinking about trying craigslist... you never know, I might get lucky and find a nice plasma screen for only a hundred dollars! If I can secure one of those I'm going to try and get my hands on a Xbox 360. Still want one, yes. Maybe Xbox will come out with something new and my brother will just give me his when he buys the new system. I can hope, right?

On a more positive note: I found this absolutely incredible bread at safeway! It's wheat with chopped nuts baked into it. It is just SO good. Makes for some of the best peanut butter and jelly sandwiches that I've ever had (besides the kinds with my dad's jam, obviously). Also, Twinings Lady Grey Tea is amazing! The other day I needed some cash so instead of going to the ATM (which charges about the price of a box of tea to withdraw money...or at least last time I did) I went to safeway to actually get some tea and they just take money out if you put in your debit number. ANYWAY. I tastes like a lighter version of Earl Grey (possibly why this is LADY Grey) but has this kind of cookie aftertaste. You know those...vanillaish keebler cookies where you have the two vanilla cookies with some sort of really sweet, creamy stuff in the middle? Kind of tastes like that. Made me crave those like no other!

Also went to the Farmer's Market. Bought my Dad some of this Salsa which, until July, is some of the spiciest salsa on this side of the country. That is his father's day present from me. The lady was really nice and actually gave me her sample bag of roasted peppers to go with it. She told me he won't have any hair by the end of it.

Also bought some a-sparrow's-guts and a basket of cherries. The cherries were awesome and are gone now, though I haven't had time to actually cook myself some of the asparagus (sp?! goodness I'm lost without spell-check).

 

Anyway, I better be off and actually get my thermo homework done so I won't have to do it on Tuesday (my only day off for another week).

Cheers

For the past couple weeks I've been living at my parents' house. It has been weird because it doesn't feel like home to me because what was my room has turned into mine and my dad's room (my dad snores so loud that he can't sleep with my mom...). It's been kinda hectic going from babysitting to working at Pier One back to Aurora just to do it again the next day.

Pier One has been giving me a lot of hours. This is both good and bad... Lots of people have left: Kim, Sherri, Bessie, and now Holly. Farah is going to India to visit her family there for a few months. No one knows if Jessica is going to come back. She got injured in February and still hasn't been back to work. Brittany is going to school at CSU in the fall, so she'll be gone as soon as summer is over. Needless to say, we need people. I've offered to work more hours until the end of summer so that Bonnie has time to find more people. There is a Racheal that starts work today. Hopefully she'll stay a while.

Tonight I'm going back to Golden, finally. Though, I came back on Friday and spent the night. It was weird because since Michelle and Jason have been living there by themselves, they've kind of made it just their place. The kitchen has been taken over by recycling and Jason's kitchen things. I made a little room in the fridge for my things, and I put bread on the shelf which I think I've unofficially had for my stuff the entire year.
Went to the Parade and Celebration for Golden's 150th birthday. It was pretty awesome! Good cake too... Lots of free stuff.

Later, we re-arranged the stuff in the house because I thought it was about time for a change. My television is now in the kitchen area where the table used to be. After arranging Cindy, Kirk, Blair, Sean, and I watched Taken. I've seen that movie so many times, but it is always just as good. Michelle and Jason were out...I think bowling? Until about eleven, maybe ten. Didn't really talk to them much. The way it goes I guess.

Found out the internet wasn't working. That was kind of... upsetting. Especially because I start summer school next week and one of my books is online... Really need that fixed.

Packed up lots of my kitchen stuff. I think glassware will be next. Leave plates til near the end of my stay there.

Parents want me to move out of that house and into the sorority house that first week in July. Dad's taking off that week and says he wants to take my larger things (desk and such) out of there. May or may not be a good idea. They say they'll pay for those extra few weeks, but they don't have money and I know it so... I don't know. We'll see.

Looking into buying Kirk's Xbox 360 off of him. Get Xbox live to play with Kacie (<3!) which would be AWESOMELY FUN but horridly time-consuming. We'll see how well-off I am by the time Fall Semester comes around. Working so many shifts at Pier One will really be a great help though. No joke.

Went to Riley's Birthday yesterday. It was fun, and I saw a ton of people I haven't seen in forever. I love the Cuevas Family. They kind of rock.

Well, taking advantage of internet while I still have it so I better get to my pre-class reading.

Cheers!

So, there hasn't been an update in a while. This kind of saddens me.

Right now I'm living out of a suitcase at my parent's house. I'm temporarily residing there so I can babysit a couple kids. It is good money for just waking them up, feeding them, and taking them to their respective camps.

Next week school starts up for me again. I honestly can't wait. Just working all the time really gets tiring. Though it has been nice getting twenty hours a week. Nice paychecks...

Anyway. Ben might be (actually it's almost certain: I just don't want to jinx it) getting a job at Dish Network. This is good. I have a toothbrush at his house now. IT'S A BIG DEAL. Actually it's not really a big deal.


Now. I visited Sam and Riley yesterday. I love visiting them! However, this morning I get a text from Sam. Eric (you know, cheated on me, left me [twice!], said he wanted to get back with me then dumped me a day later: that Eric) has asked her out. I realize a lot of what happened between him and I is my own damn fault and I should stop being so...crazy over it, but still.
I mean, I love Sam to death. If he makes her happy, so be it. I just hope that he has changed and that he endeavors to deserve her.

Plus, I really still want karma to kick his ass.

ANYway.
I guess I should say that I passed all my classes last semester. Passed being a relative term for Calculus III. I'm hoping Diff EQ is easier than that, but you never know. I'm hoping with a lot of work and determination I can pull my GPA to a 3.0 and pass everything well from here on out. Maybe ask for Saturday evenings off so that I can spend time with Ben at least once a week, then maybe friday evenings with my family... Pretty sure that my life will turn into a schedule again as soon as fall semester starts. Hate it, but that's the way it goes.

Pretty happy though about this next week. I get TWO days off. Super awesome, I think. Monday and Thursday. Need to get times switched with somebody on friday since I can't open seeing as I babysit Blake and Rory in the mornings...

Anyway. Life is good.

Cheers

For future refrence:
http://artofmanliness.com/2008/05/14/100-must-read-books-the-essential-mans-library/

Just a note to everyone who wants to haggle:
After this has been tried several times by people at my job I thought I should tell you that at Pier One, unless the piece of furniture/pillow/rug is the LAST ONE and is damaged you will NOT get a discount on it.
Unless you get a pier one card, of course.

It's just so annoying when people try to haggle and get friggen PISSED OFF because you won't.


Haggling is not in our policy, sorry. 

As many of you know, Don will be having open heart surgery on Wednesday, April 15^th at University Hospital.  He is in stage four of congestive heart failure, and has been in poor health.  A Left Ventricular Heart Assist System will be implanted (please see diagram attached).  The device assists the heart with pumping blood to the body, enabling the recipient to have more energy and have a better quality of life.   He is expected to be in ICU for two weeks after the surgery and will be in the hospital for one to three months.

 

He was admitted to the hospital this morning and is in Surgical ICU, room 227.  After a barrage of tests with more to come tomorrow, he is in good spirits and is ready to get on with the surgery.  Surgery is scheduled for Wednesday morning at 7:30am, and is expected to take a minimum of six hours to complete.

 

Yours prayers would be greatly appreciated!

 

 

Love,

Dottie & Brenda

1st Corinthians 7.

There.

Well, Lisa Fury (a girl I know from Dove Creek) posted THIS on facebook. Really glad it didn't happen. Most of my cousins who live in the area go to that school.

Shooting up people really doesn't solve your problems... Unless they are shooting at you in which case, yes, shooting at them would solve your problem.

P.S. Dove Creek High School is part of Dolores County Schools, not Farmington. Way to go, journalist.

/SIGH. WANT

Also WANT

Damn you, school, for making me so poor.

Forgot to add:
:D I have an interview for an internship with Oldcastle on the materials end.

YAY!

So, here's the thing. I COULD actually catch up next semester to the amount of credits I ought to have at this time. The ONLY problem is that it's 19 bloody credit hours AGAIN.
While, yes, that's a lot of credits, I would very much like to be where I ought to be and not have to continuously play catch-up.

Hopefully I won't have as much to do next year/sememster... maybe actually utilize the committee I will (maybe) have as (maybe) fellowship chair of APO (you never know, I could be challenged on the floor today).

I don't know. I think I could pull it off. Maybe? You know, I could try it and if it's too hard I can drop Soil Mechanics. It's just, I can take Mechanics of Materials WITH Soil Mechanics and I think I want to do that so that I can get those out of the way.
Then there's this petrography class I'm required to take (wasn't on the 2006-2007 checklist I printed and showed cindy...) but it's only 2 credit hours!

According to the flow chart I just found, I could plausably drop thermo as well. Good to know...


You know what? I'm going to do it. Will be restricting the work schedule though...

This is me royally pissed off.
due to ( Trevor Huffman's Email )

He is a horrible person to whom I've been nothing but nice too.
Fellowship is to me as APO is to Cindy. It's pretty much my baby. I love it to death.
I've tried to get rooms in the Student Center for events like movie days, but it never works out so I have them here. Plus, I will admit, I am lazy. OF COURSE I WANT TO HAVE STUFF HERE. However, most of the time I do it is ME scheduling it and michelle and cindy knowing is usually an afterthought.

He never has done anything efficiently. As far as I know he's never done the paperwork (which, let's face it, I haven't either but I have STARTED! ). Trevor never notified us of cancellations which IS his job, despite what he told us when Children's Hospital stuff was canceled.

He has never been nice. Most of his emails have been as rude as possible, this one included.


And asking us to not respond? That is what a coward does. No brave martyr has EVER said "please don't kill/maim me for my opinions".
So stop acting like a martyr, Trevor.


And his reputation? He never had a good one. Everyone I've mentioned his name to thinks he's a jerk.

In short: I am angry at what Trevor has said. I'm sorry for ever giving him the benefit of the doubt. He never deserved it.



On a side note: yaaaay diva cup

So. Update? Yes. I think so.
( Oh pictaurs )

So I somewhat did what my mom said and today I applied for two internships. One in Utah and one in Maryland.

GOOGLESEARCHDON'TFAILMENOW.

Not that I have anything else to do ANYWAY. Since they blocked EVERYTHING.

And the phones changed so they are all...weird. I don't know. People are all "I've been on the line twenty minutes" and I'm all "sorry! It doesn't even show me you called! D:!"

On the plus side though, I've spent time with Ben and his family (at least his brothers) AND I got to sleep in on Saturday. YAY! I'm pretty sure this isn't my brother's or sister's break so unfortunately I probably won't be able to spend much time with them except for tonight and maybe tomorrow night if I decide to stay there. Maybe I should stay another night- if anything, for my brother's sake. He did kinda just stick up for me the other day.
My siblings are becoming exponentially cooler as they get older/more mature. Thank goodness.

I'm pretty excited for habitat for humanity on wednesday! I've always wanted to do it, but I just haven't ever been able to. On that note: I need work gloves. Considering what I want to do with my life, it would probably be a good idea to have them anyways. And probably need to find sturdy shoes, because my tennis shoes are falling apart/ made out of cloth instead of leather.

Also: Initiation for Pi Phi in a few weeks! :D
Also, Also: APO is only a few steps from being a chapter! :DD
Also, Also, Also: Sean's parents okayed us using their cabin in Bailey! Retreat for APO after all! :DDD

Also, Also, Also, Also: I still need to get fellowship paperwork done x.x damn.

BUT! In minerology Rebecca, Kristin (sp?!) and I have decided to start a study group. Once a week (or more depending on material) from like 7-9pm in the lab classroom. Hopefully I can pull my grade up. UGH. I hate/love that class so much.

Oh. Need to study statics as well. I wish I didn't suck at it and that he would give us a review because that is what helped me do well on the previous exam. Jackass, saying we needed to study just the class problems and not a guide. WHAT IF THAT IS HOW I STUDY, EH? EVER THINK OF THAT YOU... ANGRY JERKFACE?! /fail.

just hope I don't fail. I really can't afford to fail.

So apparently I need a full time job for the summer.

I am SUPER pissed right now. Yeah, that'd be great. But I'm already working TWO jobs part-time. Yes, I need to save money.

But maybe my mom needs to get a job too. I realize that loans are taken out in my parent's name, but... they can get it deferred and I have no intention of them having to pay it back themselves (minus the interest they are paying for the first loan now... unfortunately). Once I have a job I'll pay them back slowly but surely.

But she's like "I got you a babysitting job here" and I'm all "I am renting in golden. I'm not going to NOT live in a place if I have to pay rent anyway". And she's all "so what. You need to get another job."


Here, you know what? I'll just off and get married and have a couple kids. Then I'll get grants! Oh what a HAPPY mother she will be then.
Actually, considering the money I'd get... it really wouldn't be half a bad idea.
Or I could just join the Navy. They'll give me 8,000 dollars a semester, plus an internship, plus a job after I graduate.
Any other ideas? Because, while I love Rory and Blake to death and would LOVE to babysit them... I live in Golden. Also, I'm probably not getting the Employee Kid job at Pioneer so... yeah. 

Nothing much has been going on. Actually that's a lie.

So since winter break I've done quite a few things. I shed the title of VP of Membership in APO, retaining only VP of Fellowship (resulting in me being lower on the totem pole which, yes, sometimes bothers me). This has taken quite a bit of stress off my shoulders.
Recently joined Pi Beta Phi because I needed a change. A good one. Pi Phi and APO actually go a little more hand-in-hand than you'd think. The combination is actually quite nice as APO is more service and Pi Phi is more academic which balances out excellently! I don't remember when I've felt so driven to just DO things.

Ben really wants to get on my mother's good side. Or that's the impression he's given. Already that's a one-up on almost everyone I've ever dated. Mom's still giving me a hard time. Dad just wants me happy. I don't know that I've been any different than before, in fact I'm pretty sure I was being a better person than before.
Anyway.

Really into country music lately. Actually it's usually a cycle. During winter and fall it's more just alternative, and when it starts warming up it's country.
Maybe because this is the time of year where I make my trip to Dove Creek usually? USUALLY I go to Dove Creek during spring break rather than winter, and then again in summer. Can't wait for this summer! Though perhaps if I want to go to the dance again, I should probably semi-learn to dance. No more bruised toes, thanks.

Got a raise at Metro Brokers! Now 15 dollars an hour! It's awesome. About 200 dollars a paycheck which almost pays the bills itself, but still working at Pier One to have a little extra income. Though, I've found that it's cheaper to even live in the Sorority house than live here... Which is lame. Though I will miss being here, I won't miss the management. No way.

Ben's leaving in  a little less than 47 days.

So far this week has been shite and ... I really can't even begin to explain how plain old FRUSTRATED I am.

UGH. I am so done with this crap.

So I only had one can of diet coke yesterday. No other sources of caffeine. I was SO tired last night I just passed out. Seriously.

Right now I'm so tired. I can't even begin to tell you how tired I am. BUT! I don't have to work today after this (thank goodness!) so I can go home and crash...but I'll most likely go to the Rec Center.

Have I told you how awkward it is being in the freshman pledge class when you're not a freshman? Pretty awkward. They're a wonderful group of ladies, don't get me wrong: it's just hard to find something in common with them even though they are only a year below me (though a couple of them are academically ahead of me...). We'll all be pretty good friends, I'm sure. Also as a spring pledge I kind of feel as though I'm coming in in the middle of everything, ya'know? Probably should have done this last school year- it would have been a little less awkward.

ANYWAY. Spending time with Ben was awesome. We tried to play "Rome" which seems like Age of Empires except you play on a board. We used pieces from Monopoly and some zombie game and Risk and... it was working but it takes a helluva long time. So after four-five hours (I think?) of playing, each of us only having four turns, we decided to quit. We being mostly Nick and myself. I was TIRED AS ALL HELL.

On the way to work today I took the wrong road- I started heading back to Golden- so I ended up NOT going to the store to buy something for lunch. Didn't have breakfast so I'm STARVING. It may get to the point where I call my parents...but I hope not. They have food here I'm allowed to eat so... I'll try to keep to that for a while


I wish I was still curled up with Ben. /sigh.

Tests clear!

However, if I am not pmsing right now, then I'm just one moody-as-all-hell woman.

Please forgive any outbursts.

SO! I went to the doctor today for a check-up. You know, full "woman check-up". So I get there. It was awesome. Then they are like "okay, time for you to put on the gown!" which was horrid. Not only was it ALREADY cold in the room, the AIR CONDITIONING was on. Apparently it was to be fixed. but IT WASN'T.

So I'm there, chillin on the table when BUZZZZZZZZ. My phone vibrates. I got a text message. I try to get off the table without losing my very revealing paper garb. SUCCESS! I get to the message and it's a 970 number. "hey whats up"
First thought was "who the hell is this?" then was "must be someone from dove creek". Then it was "Brenda would have spelled something wrong". Then "ooooooooh! Grant." Promptly I save his number again so that I won't be so confused again. So here I am, pretty much naked, texting with my ex. I text Ben, because I would much rather text Ben while nude than grant, but that just turns into a dead-end conversation.

FINALLY Doctor comes in and does the exam thing. I am much relieved. No texting while talking to the doctor!

You see, I don't like ignoring people who are texting me. I always think "what if it's urgent?" I guess they would call, but you never know!

/anti-climaxtic story.

Anyway, apparently he got back with this one chick like... yesterday? I think it was yesterday. And then last night she cheated on him soooooo... he was asking for advice. She's done this before and she just begged for forgiveness and said she changed: dump her.

Spent lots of time at home. Did laundry and went to Olive Garden with my mom and caley! then while my laundry was drying I hung out with caley and it was FUN TIMES ON THE XBOX OMG. I want one now, even though I haven't wanted one for years. And Fable II.

Anyway. Got home, tried to do statics. Was less eager when I found that calculus classes were canceled and the urge to go to microeconomics is near to zero so.... DURING THAT TIME. I've got them copied down and crap. YAY.


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Bloodwork should be done by next week, btw. Along with female tests and std tests. Apparently my murmer wasn't too bad/ they are waiting for my tests to come back. So... I DON'T KNOW! YAY!