Making a Change:

Last week I changed my major. It wasn't a HUGE change from what it was- Geological Engineering with an emphasis on mineral and fuel exploration to Geological Engineering with an emphasis in engineering- but still had to go through and change my LIFE for it. Though, I feel somewhat a failure as I have yet to pass this darn physics class. Seriously, I know that it WILL come SOMEWHAT in handy later in life, but I really don't see that I have to go so much into depth with it... I'm not dealing with wires, I'm dealing with rock and dirt and climate. Plus, I want everything to be static in my situation so I really ought to have to focus more on the static aspect of physics rather than movement...though I guess knowing where a rock will fall in repect to a cliff would be a good idea.

Forgive me if I know not of what I speak- it's still only my second year (beginning of it at that) so if I'm completely wrong I'd love for someone to tell me so and explain why.

I love school, really I do. It gives me some sense of ...being? Identity? I belong somewhere. Like, in class there are people who are just as excited about the Earth and how it was formed as I am. Don't get me wrong: I don't ace the tests or anything. In fact, I got slaughtered by the last one.
I really just need to buckle down. It's hard though, when you're working two jobs, going to school full time, and your family wants to see you every weekend. Shouldn't be complaining, I suppose. They do pay for my gas most of the time... But still. It's just hard, and I realize too that there are people who have kids too on top of a job and full time student status and I am in awe of them. There is this woman in my geo class who has a full time job (teaching), a three year old, AND she's going to school full time. To me, she is super-woman. If she can do it, I can do it.


I think what's going to need to happen this next weekend (which happens to be fall break) is that I'm going to have to cut off caffeine. It is too addicting and today alone I will be consuming two energy drinks just to get me through the day.
My dad was going to take me to Dove Creek and we were going to pick up my cousin and her boy on the way, but now we can't because of the van (and now I told my boss that I can work that weekend because "my vacation died") and I'm pretty bummed.
Yes, I do want to travel a little bit. Yes, I like city life, but I want to live there. One day I will live in Dove Creek and it will be amazing. Just you see. I will have a ranch, I will have dogs, I will have an amazing life. Plus- I love pinto beans.

Speaking of Dove Creek, I will tell you one of the things I learned from dating Grant (farmer from Dove Creek- has the largest crop in the area): if you really want something, there will be a way you can get it if you try hard enough.

Well, I'm going to keep trying because I know what I want and I'll be damned if I don't get it.