Making a Change:

My mom has got me worrying about money so...Here is how I will get to work, because we all know I'm going to be working at Barnes and Noble if at all possible. If not that, then target.

The trip to:
Go To   
Corner: SW
Intersection: Jackson St & 17th St
City: Golden

Board   
Route: 16L
Destination Sign: #16L / 16L Downtown 16L W Colfax
Departs: 4:33PM
Next Trip Departure: 5:04PM

Exit   
Corner: E
Intersection: W Colfax Ave & Colorado Mills
City: Jefferson County
Arrives: 4:47PM

Travel Time   
14 minutes

The trip back:
Go To   
Corner: W
Intersection: W Colfax Ave & Colorado Mills

Board   
Route: 16
Destination Sign: #16 / 16 Golden via W Colfax
Departs: 11:51PM
Next Trip Departure: 12:51AM

Exit   
Corner: NE
Intersection: Washington Ave & 16th St
City: Golden
Arrives: 12:01AM

Travel Time   
10 minutes

You Have Arrived   
Go to your final destination

So...my dad calls me in my cubicle. "Go look at the Starbucks by the chipotle" he says. I find a window, look down, and one of the free mall ride buses RAN INTO THE STARBUCKS.

It was my favorite one too :/

My crazy theory is that the bus driver saw an ex-somethingorother with his/her new girlfriend/boyfriend and ran into the starbucks to kill him/her.

My real theory is that the operator got out to help some handicapped person and forgot to put on the brakes.

Hopefully no one got hurt :/

Not a very busy day. Very dull. I honestly just want to go home because there is nothing to do without the geoscience people here. I mean, I want to put in a full eight hours of work, sure. But...when no one is here? no.

They were supposed to tell me what wells I should be focusing on so I can have somewhere to start for this new project, but it hasn't happened yet. Yeah, they're pretty busy so I guess I can't blame them but...ugh.

I think today (if I can convince Ben) I might walk to the best buy and get a new keyboard. Mine broke (I'm still kind of angry about it since EVERYONE decided they got to use it while I was at school and now it's broken) and I kind of need a new one if I want to set up my computer (desktop).

This weekend, when I have time, I'm going to buy a journal or something and I'm going to make a list of all the books I have. This was prompted by the fact that I can't find my Count of Monte Cristo...WAIT! I let Stephanie borrow it! AHA!...Still I need to make a list so this doesn't happen again. I should probably read the books that Ben and Josh lent me last year. Yeah... plus that would give me an excuse to bring up Tale of Genji with Josh and see if he's done with it yet. Super long book, let me tell you.

Oh boy. I have work tomorrow, joy. Then I have a wedding to go to. Double joy. THEN! my sister's recital is tomorrow. TRIPLE JOY. Sometimes I think I should have stayed in ballet.

So, if we get home soon enough I'm going to ride my bike before Ben comes over. I've taken to riding my bike all the way along the path behind my house and back (Cindy and Kirk know where it ends). It's nice to get out for a bit. It was pretty cold yesterday and a storm was coming in pretty quickly so I had to cut my fun short.

Not looking forward to wearing a skirt, that's for sure.

So I had a meeting with Hal Macartney and Dan....somethingorother. ANYWAY. I might be going to Texas in the next couple weeks to see them core this one well, which will be exciting. Not only will I get to go on a trip by my self (well, not exactly by my self but... not with my family), but I'll actually get to be out in the field. I'm pretty excited. Honestly, I don't know if I'll be working for another company next year. Pioneer all the way, yo.

But anyway. Finally got some direction in my project. Before it was just "go look at these!" and I was all "Okay!" but it was burning me out. This week has actually been one of the slowest weeks ever. I can't wait until tomorrow where everyone will be gone and I can actually play my music so I don't get so bored. I know looking at this pictures, getting the content down on paper, and understanding it, is really really important...but...sometimes it is so very dull. I will admit, looking at the SAME rocks over and over again is quite boring.

So I was given a map after my meeting. It has all the wells and stuff for the Raton Basin area (a big area in Colorado...up north I believe?). I look at it after he places it on my desk in my cubicle and low and behold "O'Neal 1-14A" "O'Neal #1-16C"
I knew O'Neal was a common name, but come on!
Brain, stop making me miss people.
Especially people who don't exist online.

The last few days have been somewhat hectic for me.
Friday I slept all afternoon after I took some allergy medication. Kept waking up after two. Not surprising as all the dreams after that dealt with dissappointment and death.
Funny how that's a normal dream.

Saturday I woke up earlier than I needed to and took my time eating and taking a shower. Got to work five minutes before I needed to be there. It was freezing in the new office. Our office just moved across the hall from where it was and it's a great deal smaller than the old place. We have this tiny desk- the size of two dormdesks put together- for two people. Karen is a larger woman too, so it was kind of difficult. My phone wasn't even ON the desk, and I had to move to get it every time it rang.
Karen told me that she told Kristin to call me first whenever she needed someone to take over for her. That was really nice of her to do that, though since she lives on her own and already has a pretty nice job, I guess she doesn't really NEED the money.
Left at twelve thirty. Got home and cleaned a bit before Stephanie came over. She came over at three and we watched POTC3. Abbreviated because I can't spell properly today >.<
Caley called a bit after...eight I think? Asked if I wanted to hang out. Told her Steph was there, but she said she didn't mind because she knew Stephanie (I think they were in girl scouts together before?). We went to Southlands to meet them (them being Caley, Chris, and Takashi). Caley was kind of hurt that I went to Sex and the City already. Still going with her today though, because I promised.
Takashi kept pointing out my nose. It really makes me uncomfortable. Not only do I have this impression that it's pretty big (people say it's not, so I'm assuming it's just something I'm really self conscious of...but you never know)but I've been breaking out particularly in that area so I just don't want people to point it out.
I don't know, I don't know. Maybe I just need to get over it.

gdf,jgsl
Today I feel better than yesterday- almost didn't have to take any allergy medicine. Did anyway, since I'm working. For lunch: oatmeal (since it's cold in here) and some fruit. Excellent.

You know what I hate? Real Estate offices with numbers as their office ID. Then the realtors spew it all out and then when you ask them to repeat it they get this frustrated tone to their voice. Rawr.

That is... about it. Yeah.

I'll be very surprised.
After staying up until three last night, as you can imagine, I'm not very AWAKE today. I honestly really want to go find a place to hide and take a nap...but I have concluded that my best choices are places on eleven right next to the HR lady. Not a good idea. She'll find me and be like "Rachel, take a drug test now" and I'll be like "NOOOOOO"

/sigh.

This is the last time I'm doing this. Ever. Period.

I just came back from the Core slabbing place. It's pretty cool, maybe one day I'll go in and take a few pictures of the warehouse...if they let me. It's huge. It's run by this guy and his wife, and they've been running it for around ...oh about thirty years or so. They are the only employees, so they'll be the only ones I'm working with.

Apparently the company will allow me to take a company car to the place and back- which is nice. It's only five miles away, so I don't have to pay for gas really. Annnnnd I drove an Expedition there today, because it was the only car they had free. I hated it. I couldn't control it well, and I had to correct myself a few times on the road- which was hard to do in such a big car. sdhfaklsdhf

just like that.

While heating up lunch I met this guy named Dave. He's cute. He's in Finance: one of two people. Yeah.
I was getting my meal out of the fridge and then stood waiting for him to get his stuff out of the microwave so I could put my stuff in. It's a small kitchen so we kind of had to squeeze past each other.
Then he asks "Are you new here?" "Kind of..." "Well I'm Dave. What department are you working in?" "Geosciences, you?" "Finance. I'm one of two people." "OH! so that means you're pretty important!" "Yep!" And that's how it went.

Well, I better go back to work now...my lunch break is over : /

So today was just...bland. Nothing much happened and...I really don't mind that. Went to work, we had twenty one showings while I was there... I guess it was to be expected of a holiday weekend.

got home and decided I wanted to go to Best Buy, so I did. With my brother and sister in tow, we went to look at awesome stuff. Came home with a keyboard and mouse to USB converter.

My wireless keyboard and mouse are broken- last one to use them was Amy.
I'm kind of a little pissed.


Watched... something. I don't remember what... oh yeah, Jane Austen Book Club. Excellent movie.
I think at least...



Spent some time talking with my brother a bit. He was calmer today, so it was kinda nice actually.

Funny coincidence. I was thinking about Sean for a minute (saw texas license plates) and then I look to my left and there is this big sign that says "WG O'Neal"

I cracked up. It was crazy.

I'm actually talking to Austin right now. And unlike previous days, we've been talking pretty steadily for the past...oh three or so hours.

Sorry, I just think it's kind of amazing. Just the thoughts that have been running through my head over the past few days... yeah. mostly negative.

Then on thursday, I thought of what Sabrina posted like...a few days ago. Maybe the universe IS telling me something.

Just leave everything well enough alone.

So I've been in a pretty good mood ever since I realized that.

But now it's two eighteen and I need to sleep sometime tonight! er...this morning

Woke up rather easily at ten till six. Took my shower, towel dried my hair. Put on my work clothes and went downstairs to eat breakfast. Unfortunately there was no bread for toast, so I had cereal instead. We took Erik to school in the corola, the car I don't really like, and headed off to work.

My dad and I didn't talk too much on the way there. So we both sat with NPR telling us what had happened this past week.

Got to work, and Hal introduced me to everyone. It's a little overwhelming, not knowing anyone who you're working with. I was comfortable in IT because I knew my dad and Steve and Shawn.

After an hour and a half being talked up by Janet (the human resources lady who blames everything on IT which made me want to scream at her) I found my cube. Barb told me to make sure my phone worked, and I noticed that I had Shawn's old phone. It makes me somewhat upset that he left. He didn't tell anyone, he just left.
Hopefully things get better for him.

All I did was look at files today. I got acquainted with them, and I know how everything is sorted. I'm supposed to find these files, but many of them have no documentation and it's super hard to do anything with them. Unfortunately I'm having a hard time asking for help. I talked to this guy named Tom Hemler (his son, Matt, is going to be a sophmore at mines this year: he had mines park last year). He spoke so softly I didn't hear half of what he said. Talked a lot about how mines really pushes you to work. I agreed. Told him my story about how I didn't work too hard this last semester and had the grades to show it.

Had lunch: leftovers.

Sifted through more files. Got a handle on the U-P files which are sorted COMPLETELY DIFFERENT from the Raton Bason files. I hate that. So unorganized and so very horrible at communicating.

Went to get ice cream at two. I paid because my dad was about to use the credit card, which we are not supposed to do.

Spent the rest of the day gathering everything so I can REDO everything I did wrong today. Hopefully I have it right this time and I won't make a fool of myself.

I did see the photos of the core samples, and they are amazing. You look at them and you can see the history of the area. There are parts where you can see the grains of the sand as if it were a beach, and other times where you see the rocks that lay in the silt. It's amazing. You realize how much there was before us, and that in the end we all will be carbon deposits in the dirt. Very small, but still significant in the grand scheme of things.

There is this one core- I swear, they have a cross section of an eel or something. It doesn't look like an intrusion, but it might be. I'd have to look at the actual core to be sure. There are some things you just can't get from pictures.

After work I ate really fast and watched Greek. Then Ben came over and he gave me music, like he always does, and we watched House.
I wanted to cry. Erik made fun of me.

Guess who is purchasing House Season Four as soon as it's available? Me. That's who.

So today.
Went in with Erik...again. I'm getting rather annoyed with my brother at this point. Who wouldn't? I've woken up two days before I've wanted to (six twenty in the morning) and have NOT seen his teacher. I found out today that he has math first hour and I could have followed him to class yesterday and found his teacher. Needless to say, I was super super super annoyed. And now I have to go tomorrow. Why do I have to go?

Went back home and tried to sleep, but every ten minutes someone called or the dogs barked. I was getting really pissed. My brother calls and I snap at him. Today was just...not a good day. I wasn't feeling today.

Dad calls, we have to go pee in a cup. OHBOY.

So I pick up Erik. We go downtown and pick up papers. I talk to some of the people there, and then we are on our way to the doctor's office. It was relocated to the building right behind my dad's work, so it was very easy to get to... though I wanted to cross the road diagonally.

I was kind of embarrassed because it's my time of month and...peeing in a cup? really? They tell you not to flush the toilet, and I was like "no way..." so I 'accidentally' flush (actually I really did accidentally flush, but I would have flushed anyway I decided. Just a good habit...). Especially since it was a guy doing the whole handling of the toilet... yeah. You guys'll understand what I mean.

ANYway.

I just found out that Shawn is no longer there... He was my favorite! : / Apparently around christmas he just ...stopped going to work. Marty talked to his mother and found out that a friend of his died and he took it really hard... Poor Shawn : / . I'll miss him dearly.
I really hope he starts feeling better...

But we got back from the doctor, and my dad says " go talk to hal." so I did.
We talked about what I'll be working on. It was amazing! He's so nice and he was telling me all about the core samples I'll be looking at. I'm the only one working on this (I'm the only geo intern...again they MADE the position for me). And he was showing me this hand lens and he's like "you need one for your profession...we'll get one for you. It'll be a gift."

I'm pretty stoked.

My cough is getting worse. If it gets worse by tomorrow, I'll be going to the doctor.

Grades:
Calc: PRG (D)
Physics I: PRG (D)
Earth: C
Chem: C
PA: A
Quant lab: C

Rachel,

 

Your father indicated that you’d be interested in a summer job here at Pioneer, and hopefully one along the geological lines.  I have applied for permission to hire someone to work with our geoscience data and help with quality control and organization.  We also need someone to look over our large core sample collection and see what we have, what we should save and keep storing. This job will give you an exposure to a ton of data and more importantly a good start on learning Petra, the industry standard for geologic mapping and cross-section preparation.  Interested?  If so, please fill out the enclosed application and send to Jane Meis (fax: blah blah blah number), and let me know that you’d like to be considered.

 

I look forward to hearing from you,

 

Hal Macartney

Geoscience Manager – Rockies Asset

Pioneer Natural Resources


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I was more excited over the prospect of looking over a core sample collection than actually getting a job.

I'm tired right now. I don't know why. I got enough sleep.

I may or may not have forgotten my toothbrush and toothpaste at school. Luckily I have my sonicare toothbrush at home. I don't like using it, it makes my mouth tingle in the wrong way.

Words cannot express how glad I am that there is no work over break. I might study a bit of chemistry just for the hell of it, but that's about it.

Tomorrow I'm getting my vision checked. I'm thinking I might need reading glasses. When I got my vision checked at the doctor they were all "you might want to get your vision checked" because I've dropped below the 20/20 vision I once had. It might be from all the staring at the computer screen. In fact, I wouldn't be surprised. My eyes have been strained as of late.

Then I guess I'm picking up my brother every day this week.

And maybe even next week. So I guess when I'm not at school, I'm my family's personal slave?
I guess so.

whatever.

I need to pay my fines. I really want to check out books, my problem is I never turn them in on time. It should be like netflix where they are never late, but if they are in your possession for more than a year you might have to pay for them. I hope one day to have a personal library.

I'm chilling here in the library so as to give Michelle and her group more room in our room to work. There is this book on the shelf that I am...really wanting to read. The thing is, it's huge. Really really huge. I might just read a bit of it and then just come back for it after break. or...I could utilize the library on Smoky Hill Road. The Arrogance of Power by Anthony Summers. Looks rather interesting.

Too bad the library here has almost no fiction section. So many books, but not so many that I want to read.

EPICS project should be as good as done. Joseph was given everything (minus the final product drawing) and he should have it bound by....four-ish? Hopefully, or we're screwed.

Lah.

I watched some Youtube videos of Kurt Vonnegut and ...I was upsetted by Fox's portrayal of him in their "tribute". They were just not really nice and very very very very biased. He did call for the president's impeachment, but you know...sometimes going against the ruler is a good thing.
I don't know. I have my opinions, everyone else has theirs. No one will EVER have your exact opinion. If they do, they are lying.

I'm trying to find more things to do so I don't have to go back to the room, but it looks like I'll be going back here in thirty minutes or so. I'll probably just chill in Cindy's room. Grab some tea or coffee.

oooooo. We could go to JavaCity and get some drinks. mmmmm. I'm liking this idea. Gotta use my money somehow. I might be changing my plan next year to the one that Michelle had this semester. I didn't eat as much as I thought - mostly because we had rice.

Something needs to be done for Maz for Christmas. Maybe we could go sing her Chemistry Christmas Carols? Imissher : /

I'm not stressing probably as much as I should. You know, the heathy "I've got to get this done" kind of stressing. I haven't studied Chemistry like I should. However, it's freaking Ideal Gas Law. How do you mess that up? PV=nRT

Bleh.

This week, despite the finals next week, is going to be a good week. Hell Yes.

Coffee happens now. Go.

So here I am. At work. Alone. It's pretty darn boring. Surprisingly there are actually showings being made. They've stopped for now (and hopefully the rest of the day?!). All I can think to myself is "I should have taken up mom's offer to take the 2 liter bottle of diet coke."

I made coffee, so I probably will be drinking that. I HATE this keyboard. I like the one I usually use. And the position of this screen leaves much to be desired. RAWR.

AND I just transferred someone to the wrong place.
and this lady on the phone was just a total bitch to me.

Sorry, that number that you spouted out in two seconds does not sound familiar to me. Maybe if you said it at a realistic speed it would. I offered to send her through voice mail...


Some days I hate this job. So unrewarding.

I just stamped a flier from Greg Hume (a realtor in the office I work at now) that is going to be sent to Steve Stanton (my boss over the past three summers).

I think it's hilarious.


And I just got complimented on my personality from a realtor here.

smashing.

"So what school are you going to? DU?"
"naw, School of Mines"
"So you want to be an engineer?"
/nod
"are you sure? You have a better personality than most of the engineers out there"
"Well, I guess people'll just like me better then"

SO. Date with Josh last night. The theater idea was a good one. It was definitely worth it (and yes, it was more comedy than romance).

Went to 13th and Ford to find him, and mistook this one guy crossing the street as him. It was slightly embarrassing, but oh well. We laughed about it afterwards.

Came back to the dorm, Cindy met Josh. Josh also met most of the girls on the floor. The girls were trying to make him feel uncomfortable I think, but he just turned their words around on them...pretty much.

Brittany:"what are your intentions with our Rachel?"
Josh: "Those are kind of private" /suggestive look
Grace:"If your penis looks like this" /finger bent "then you are doing something wrong"
Josh: "No, if it looks like that then SHE'S doing something wrong"


My first time making reservations for something. Awesome, huh?

The play was about this couple who got together and not two months afterword, they got married. At the wedding the girl and this old man trade places (think Freaky Friday), and it was great. Very vulgar in some places though...

Got back and there was a condom and a "sex mix" CD taped to the door- Gifts from Grace and Brittany. I felt like taking the condom wrapper and just...leaving it on the floor right in front of the door to Brittany's room, but that's just a waste of a condom. You can make perfectly good condom bombs with those.

Made rice, watched a bit of house, and I think we went to sleep around...one? One. right.

It was pretty freaking awesome.

Woke up, had coffee, and I'm wearing a skirt.
Drove Josh to his house in Aurora (since the phone store was closed until ten, and we were there around eight...). Now I am at work.

And the paper in the printer is jammed. joy.


I really just want to go back to the dorm and go to bed. Yes, dorm. not home.

Today is my last day working as an IT Intern (Yes, they actually put that on the portal. I am calling myself an intern rather than "summer help").

I was talking to Steve (my boss) and he said that I should probably go into the geology department. I don't really want to say "but that's boring!" but it is. Unless I live in Trinidad, I'll end up doing paperwork crap.
If I'm looking through paperwork, I'd rather be in the seismology (?) department with Ed.



It kind of just hit me last night that I'm actually going to college. Really, I hadn't expected to make it this far. I was sure that I'd die of stress or something ridiculous before I got there, like being swarmed by bees and ending up being allergic...yeah.
But I'm leaving friday. For college. My FIRST CHOICE college none-the-less (though I still am conviced I was let in by a fluke, my grades pretty much sucked).

I'm going to miss downtown. Working here at least. In the middle of all the hustle and bustle.

(and let it be noted that from this office window I can see my second choice school- CU Denver, which would have put me not very far from Pioneer's office)

I can actually see Elitches from here too. This building pertty much is the largest in LODO, so you can see pretty much anything from the confrence room window. It wraps around the side of the building, so all the mountains are in clear view. It's really nice. I like it here.

Hopefully we have a good view from our dorm room. It'd really suck to be stuck with a crappy view all year- then again there would be less distraction from looking out the window.

Today is just...really calm. I like it.

I hope mines doesn't kill me.

I'd love to have this really really long entry about how I did something awesome these past couple days- but I haven't done anything noteworthy.

Went on a run yesterday and that is pretty much it. It was pretty out when I was running though.

Well, I don't know if you can call it running. I run for like two minutes, walk for a minute. Run, walk.

I can't just out and run because my body really sucks like that. I wish I could, and I'm working up to it, but it just won't happen any time soon.

It's this thing about not being able to breathe if I run too much. Maybe I'm allergic to exercising? Or maybe I should drink more water WHILE I'm running? Dunno. As long as I'm making an effort to remain healthy, it doesn't matter so much.

Tomorrow is my last day of Pioneer-work. I think I might get away with not paying for my shirt :P
They shouldn't make me pay for it anyway though, I've worked for them longer than some of the people here- and that's combining all my working months.


/shrug.

Today is Cheesecake factory day. I'm seriously excited.

What else? Is there anything else to say?
I think my dad is sad that I'm leaving. We were talking yesterday and I was like "three days, dad." He didn't really say anything. In fact, he kind of ignored it.

:/

ilovemydad.
andmymom.
andmysiblings.

I'm going to miss them...But I'll see them pretty much every weekend so it's okay.

My weekend was pretty uneventful. Well, that's a lie


I don't remember what I did friday, but I do remember getting off work a couple hours early (yessss!). Sat around playing sims and watching Pan's Labyrinth.

Saturday was really slow at work. 21 showings ALL DAY. In case you don't know, 30 showings is a very slow day during the summer. 21 is slower than slow.

So I spent most of the time on the internet and reading Atlas Shrugged.
I got a new tea! It smells like Jasmine and I swear, it's the best smell ever. Well, right after rain at least.

Got home and lounged about my house. Around ten thirty Cindy pops up on AIM and asks if I could see her because she was upset. I invite her to spend the night. Sooooo I drove to her house going about ten over the speed limit.
Took her back to my house, and we sit outside. Kirk dropped by, and we stood outside my house until about midnight. Went inside, and Cindy and I talked until about one.

Woke up at...seven I think? Took a shower and stuff. Offered food and drink to Cindy. Had the usual toast and peanut butter.

Dropped Cindy off on my way to Church. Two of the girls are already leaving for college. One is going to Trinidad, the other I think is going to Arkansas or something like that. We promised to all get facebooks and find each other. It was kind of sad.

Mom was kinda pissy all afternoon. I was asking about where the insurance card is so I wouldn't have to pay the fee for that, and she started yelling and all sorts of crap. I yelled back, because I'm tired of her always yelling at me for stupid things.

Then she seemed to forget it ever happened and invited me to go with her and Erik to see phones. I'm still thinking AT&T is the best option, but whatever mom. whatever.

I'm going to go to Office Depot today. Also running to the bank to deposit money in savings. I think...maybe tomorrow instead.

/shrug

edit:
and I just said "idear" instead of just "idea"

So, I went and had a physical today. Fantastic, right?

Went in, I got my height and weight checked (5'3" and 137 pounds, which I am just fine with)

There was a massive rush to the bathrooms, so she checked my eyesight. My vision is getting worse. I used to be able to read the second to last line, now I cannot.
Still massive rush, so she checked my pulse and stuff. She didn't say anything so I assume it's all normal. She took down my family history for..the third time in my life or so.
These run in my family:
Heart problems
High colestorol
High blood pressure
skin cancer
bad allergic reactions
diabetes

I knew they all were in my family, but I couldn't remember who had what so I basically put it all on my mom's side.

Finally bathroom opened and I did the whole cup thing. THEN when trying to place the cup, there were like three other cups in the box. Disgusted, I poked the other people's stuff to the side, and placed my stuff in.
Talk about backed up.

Then got back, with a bunch of pap smear stuff laying around. Surprise, Rachel! You get to have female!physical done today! She asked if I wanted STD check, I said yes to the stuff that would be done during the female!physical, but not blood work. I HATE getting needles poked in me.
So that went all fine and dandy.

Then got my finger poked. Yay. THEN! they stopped me and were like "you need to do a TB test". Okay, doctor, okay. "Also, you need to go to a cardiologist and have an ultrasound of your heart taken"...Why? "You still have a heart murmur, so we need to have that checked out"
(my heart goes 'Thuduhthump-thump' rather than 'thump-thump', they say)
So this friday I'm going into the doctor's office to get the TB stuff finished with, then go to work, then after lunch I have to go to the cardiologist. Yay.



Then I got to thinking, what if I have serious heart troubles in the future?

I don't want to die young, that's for sure. I want to die knowing that I have lead a happy life.
But when I'm older, I'll probably be in pain. So. Much. Pain.
How can you live life knowing that you are going to get older and then have to fight to live longer? Will I be able to fight until I'm 93? or will I give up at 68?

Hopefully there really isn't much wrong. Hopefully I just have the coolest heart ever, because it just wants to go at a different beat.
We'll see, we'll see.

I actually ran yesterday. You know when I say I run, well I really just run about two minutes then walk five, run two, walk five. Yesterday, however, I was able to get myself to go about seven minutes without stopping. Then I jogged/walked home, but still! I am very proud of myself.


Also, got about 1/4 of 13th floor inventory done. Super excited.

So today I have already gone through all the monitors in storage and gotten their asset tag numbers and serial numbers, helped a couple users, and signed up for an Ebay and Paypal account (to get textbooks for next year...half.com, yo)

I feel accomplished.