Making a Change:

The trip to Dove Creek was awesome!
A much needed time away from the busy life.
I had an early flight, departure at 8:15. Got to the airport VERY early so once I was at my gate I just sat and read a book. There was this guy next to me (next meaning he sat two seats away) that was waiting for his granddaughter to arrive. Apparently the last time he had seen her was when she was seven, now she's fourteen. Crazy.
Read the rest of my book (A Christmas Carol) on the plane. It was really short, but very good. Growing up I've always watched A Muppet Christmas Carol with my brother all throughout the season so whenever there was a part I recognized the songs played in the back of my head. It was awesome.

Got to Cortez Municipal Airport and was met by my grandparents, cousin Brenda, and Aunt and Uncle. My Aunt and Uncle were only there for the laptop I carried in my suitcase (which was theirs, but... really guys? Aren't you glad I'm here?). Got to my grandparent's house. They installed new flooring in the kitchen and part way into the living room. Re-painted as well.
Most of the time I was there I was just hanging out. My other Aunt and Uncle visited often (their business has yet to be moved out of my grandparent's basement...) and Maranda made a surprise visit! Saw my Aunt Michelle briefly.
It was snowing a LOT. Roads were horrible. We only went into town twice, both times I brought my phone because I don't get service at my grandparent's house and I needed to check messages just in case work called BUT I don't know my voicemail password so I couldn't... Stupid T-mobile.

The last full day I was there my grandma taught me how to crochet! I had quite a bit done but I was unhappy with it so I unraveled it and started again. I'm gonna make a scarf and then I'll send it to my grandparents. It'll be awesome. However, I need to find my hook that is hidden in my house somewhere, or I'll have to buy new ones. I'm thinking I'll just go to walmart and get some after Christmas...
Anyway. Time comes for me to leave.  Left an hour earlier than we needed to just in case the road to Cortez was bad. It was. When we got to the airport I got all checked in and sat down. At first there weren't many people, then this bus FULL of people comes and it was really loud. The lady says the plane that left at 4:17 (the time that I was supposed to leave according to MY TICKET) was ACTUALLY for the people who just got bussed there from Telluride. I was... pretty pissed. They didn't know where the plane I was supposedly supposed to get on was or if it even was supposed to come in. They check all the Telluride people into the plane. I call my dad saying to not go to the airport because I don't even know if I'm going to be leaving that day (which really pissed me off because I was supposed to work the next day!). All of a sudden they are like "Passengers on the Cortez flight, go through security. We're putting you on this plane". So I say goodbye to my grandparents and cousin, almost crying like I always do when I have to leave, and go to the security line. Lady in front of me is unorganized, and has three trays worth of stuff to put on the plane.
Finally get onto the plane. It's literally full. No extra seats. As I buckle my seatbelt the other plane comes in right next to us. Great.
They take half an hour to de-ice the plane. I call my dad and tell him to continue heading to the airport. They got me on a plane.
Had nothing to do on the plane because they don't allow you to use electronics because it is such a small plane and anything WILL mess with the navigation equipment (though I'm pretty sure it's just for wireless devices).  ANYWAY. Got there, met my dad.

Went home. Did laundry and hung out with my family.
Mom was in pain and on meds. Brother and Sister were bouncy and hyper. Erik and I will be decorating a gingerbread man hopefully on this saturday.

Made my excuses and went over to see Ben. Watched them (being Takashi and Ben, Chris was watching and playing on his laptop) play a video game for a while, then watched Forbidden Kingdom with Ben. Er. Went to bed. Woke up and was on the computer for a bit. Tried to sleep again, was successful for an hour then I woke up again, this time for good. Hung around with Ben and Chris. We went to Wendy's and then it started to pellet snow. AND WE SAW LIGHTENING IN THE SNOW. Then I got toilet paper and dropped Ben and Chris off at their house. Got on the highway and NO ONE CAN DRIVE IN THE SNOW OMG. Took almost two hours to get home. Called my mom while I was at a standstill. She was mis-diagnosed at the ER. She couldn't work due to pain one day so I took her there. She hurt on her right side (this is important to say) and they took an ultrasound and said it was because of a cyst. They gave her pain meds. It wouldn't stop hurting even with oxycodine so she went to the doctor and they took a look at her ultrasound. They asked what side it hurt on, she says right. "So the pain has switched sides?" "No...". The cyst was on her LEFT ovary. LEFT. They're doing tests to see what else it could be- they're thinking she tore a muscle. YAY.

Er. What else?
Schedule for the next couple weeks:
Today:
-Pier One 6:30pm-10:30pm
Saturday:
-Metro Brokers 8:30am-12:30pm
-Pier One 6:30pm-10:30pm
Sunday:
-Pier One 4pm-8pm
Monday:
-Pier One 8pm-11pm
Tuesday:
-Pier One 12pm-4pm
Wednesday
-Pier One 2pm-6:30pm
Thursday
-CHRISTMAS KOMG
Friday
-Pier One 8am-12pm
Saturday
-Metro Brokers 8:30am-12:30pm
-NO PIER ONE!OMG!!!11!

so next week is a 24 hour work week. Not bad. But busy x.x
I have also cleaned my room (finally!)!
It's good to be home.

Michelle freaks out when there is a lack of posting, by the way.

Nothing too much is going on.
There is a camping trip planned for the first week in october. Warm enough to not be hot yet cold enough to be awesome. Confirmed participants are as follows: Caley, myself, Josh, Ben, and Chris.
It will be great


Date with Josh on Friday. We're going to the corn maze at Botanic Gardens. It's going to be great. I can't wait.

I was going to spend the night at the Allen Residence, but my mom just had her appendix taken out, and they really want to see me. This weekend, family is first. Sorry guys.
Well, on Monday I got a call from dad and he had to pick up Amy from the ER. I thought she just had an accident (like she does...a lot) but it ended up that my mom had a cat scan and they found that her appendix was on the wrong side of her body. Later it exploded.

Yay.

Mum called me and was sounding so horrid.So...yeah.




But camping, guys. Camping.

I'm in a lot of pain right now, and I don't know why. It's odd.




Rawr.
I'm so excited for the weekend, you have no idea though. SLEEP IN. HELL YEAH.

So I'm getting all antsy. I have a bit of work that needs to get done, but I can't get it done until the other IT lady gets me the answers that I need (because I refuse to email that guy again). So...sitting. I could do the rest of my Thank You cards I suppose. Look busy, you know?

but typing like this makes me looks busy. I had coffee for the first time in forever this morning. Not the best. I kinda want to buy some creamer just so there is some GOOD creamer out there, but that would cost money, neh?

Getting off at noon (exactly four hours of work) and then going to deliver cake to Maz :D. finally.

Theeeeen I need to run to the bank and deposit some money. After that, my cousin should be here so go and pick her up. maybe Ryder too, but I'm not sure. I'd really rather just hang out with my cousin, but seeing as she has a kid...yeah. It is kind of difficult. That's what you get for getting pregnant! He's cute though, so I'll forgive her. :3

Annnnnd she wants to go to Target. At first when she was on the phone, I was like "Target?" "Yeah, they have really nice stuff there!"

You must understand, the only clothing store around Dove Creek is Wal-Mart. Target is like...The Loft in comparison.

There is this Super Target close to where they are staying, but I don't really know how to get there so I might end up taking her to the one over by Lowes.
I have a target gift card :D

I'm going for only two diet cokes today. Think I'll make it? I'm almost finished with one. Might take one when I leave...

And I never told my boss I was taking tomorrow off...oops. : /
well, I suppose I'll just take it off and get lectured later about how I'm supposed to talk to my boss about it. Goodness, I'm so horrible with procrastination. If I just did things when I'm told to do them, I'd have so much more free time. Oh! need to call the school. I can't find my grades (I think Erik took them because he didn't want mom to know that his grades came in too) so I need to get an unofficial transcript sent.


um. yeah. Might take Maranda (and possibly Eric?) to a movie tonight. I don't know when Matt gets in (he's flying in?) so...yeah. Maranda wants me to spend the night at the hotel with them. I might, just because I miss seeing them.

And then next week we go to Dove Creek :D
I'm excited. I get to stay for the 4th this year! /dance
It's the same every year, but it's so much fun (when you're with the right people). There's the dance on the 3rd, the parade on the 4th (and fireworks!), then there is usually something on the 5th. I have to leave that friday though, which is a bummer. Only one extra day for almost 200 dollars. worth it though, in my opinion.


Saturday I'm working a full day. Gotta pay for that spa day! :D I'm pretty excited. For spa, not work.

Secretly hoping for a phone call. That would be nice.

Oh! reminds me! Need to call Chris! He wanted to hang out with Maranda, so he might be shopping with us!

Nothing else really to say. Just...one hour and fifteen minutes or so to go.

ew, my face is dry

And chris needs to fsking call me back.

I need to see if the trip can be arranged a little around my working.

I was wanting to see if it was possible to leave later on Saturday (around noonish) and come back on the next saturday if that was AT ALL possible. Then I could work on Sunday to make up for time missed.





CHRIS NEEDS TO CALL ME. RIGHT NOW.

I was invited to a concert (carbon leaf) by Caley and Ben. Unfortunately for me, my mother still controls my life and I couldn't go to yet ANOTHER concert.

Seeing as I can't lie worth anything, I decided I better just make other plans.

School on friday was uninteresting. Missed the meeting with Mr. Moeller because I thought it was during my 3rd hour, not first. Anyway, looked over Calculus homework during that time. Turned off the gas so that the chem lab wouldn't explode (they had a sub that...forgot)


Calc was relatively easy. Alec called me out to the hallway to say something about colorguard...I really could find NOTHING nice to say about it this year.

Ditched the assembly with Michelle. We went to Rite Aid. Bit my lip when we passed the bus-stop that Eric used to get on/off at. That's how we met you know.

It's getting better I must say. Though I still kind of choke when people who don't know we are not dating anymore ask how we are doing.
This shooting pain goes through my chest each time. No wonder they call it heartbreak.

got back for third. Mazingo agreed to help me with my essay for this...15,000 dollar scholarship.
I think I might die.

Um.

Kaley McGinnis asked me to have her be capitain. Or her and three other girls. No. It would get too horridly bitchy and no one would listen. I'm thinking Mel. She's nice, headstrong, and she gets things done.

At the end of third talked to Christina, and we decided to watch movies. This cheered me up.

Maz had to teach, so she left early. Kind of understood what she was saying, which is good.


Got home, had to go back out to give dad his wallet. Called Christina who said Gloria was going to hang with us as well.
Went to Blockbuster and this guy named Eric (why won't it leave me alone?) tried to convince us to get an online account.

Christina locked her keys in her car so we had to drive to her house, and drive back. It was fun though.

Got to the house (which is coincidentally Mazingo's house as well >.> ) and we made soy beans, macaroni and cheese, and rice. Then watched Saw III (which was stupid) but it was sooooo gross that we had to turn lights on.
Watched the Illusionist after that. Which is fantastic. LOVE it.

Went home, crashed.

Today I did just about nothing. Played Zoo Tycoon most of the day trying to get my 4.5 stars up to 5

I slept too much last night, so now I'm up til midnight discussing life with Ben and Chris.

I miss discussions of this type with Chris, though we used to talk more face-to-face about it rather than online. But that's what you get with opposite schedules.



I don't know.
I want to go back to Deming and watch the sky. Or to Dove Creek and scream in the middle of a canyon.


And faith dangles on a thread.
Humankind should be ashamed.

Today was eventful.
spent the night at Sam's. She...has been very suportive and even though she was the girl Eric HAD cheated on me with...it's really hard to explain.
we're just going to skip that.

ANYway. she...made me feel loads better (not that everyone else hasn't of course!) by just refusing to talk about Eric with me. Every time I tried she was just like "Rachel..." and gave me this look. After all, that's what I have a blog for, eh?

watched movies. Left a few there for her to watch. She hasn't seen Walk the Line which is...fantastic. I'm sure that's not EXACTLY how June and Johnny got together, but the actors chosen for them were perfect (and Reese has a better singing voice than June did :D haha).

Got home. Ben and Caley were online. Both asked to do something. To be fair, I went with Ben first because he DID ask first. Caley I am seeing tomorrow. :D yaaay. imisscaley

Ben took me to Blockbuster where we chose out three movies. Little Miss Sunshine, Lucky Number Slevin, and The Whore's Son. Went to Ben's house.

It was awkward. I asked Ben if anyone else was home. "no, just Chris, Jenn, and us." so I went to see Chris really quick because it's been a while. I walk in and freaking ERIC AND STEVEN are on the floor. I ignore Eric and Steven. Walk up to Chris, give him a hug, and walk out.

I was doing so well.

After being at Sam's house, I was really not thinking about Eric as much. Well, at Blockbuster when Ben asked when I saw movies I answered him truthfully with the "I saw it with Eric" but it was more of a "yeah, saw it. next movie" type thing. You know?

But...after that and SEEING how he didn't give a shit, I just got pissed off.
Still want to stab him in the face.
I emailed him the other day telling him to stop acting like I was the one that broke up with him. He has blocked me, he won't return my emails, even after he said he wanted to be friends. It pisses me off. He was lucky I was even trying to be CIVIL let alone FRIENDS.
ughhh.

But the rest of the evening was fun. Messed around with Chris, Ben, and Jenn (chris' girlfriend). Sooo much fun I tell you.

Ben got out the pictures. I found one with Eric and I curled up under a blanket. It was...cute. I remember it. Those were the times when I thought that nothing could stop me, you know?
I was invincible.


But...I am still. I'll beat this...eventually. Until then I'll be whining. It's funny because I know I'll look back and be like " oooohhh the angst" or "ugggggh I was such a whiney little girl" but at least I know that now, right?
( This is Eric-based. watch out )