Making a Change:

So I am sick and tired of this whole internet showdown. SICK of it. The people upstairs have been very unhelpful and refuse to let us help. In the middle of the week last week I had just had it with them and I texted them asking if they needed me to call comcast because this situation was just making me more than a little frustrated.

Each week I have about 20 hours of work at Pier One, 7 at Metro Brokers, and most of what is left is either sleepy-time or me going to school (though I admit, as of late I've been blowing off homework to play sims... bad Rachel). Personally, I can't work around the Library's schedule so that I can sit down and have some quality internet time. [for reference, the library is open 8am-9pm every day

After Michelle and I texting them over and over they FINALLY got this router up. Username: cuntnugget. Password: doucheface. Don't care that I'm giving this out over the internet. First off: CLASSY. Secondly: if you live in my area, take advantage of the crappy internet! Though, if you high performing computers, don't even think about trying to access the internet. My connection times out before anything even loads and I don't even have that great of computers.

Lately I've been taking to getting my assignments and required readings online, saving the pdf, and printing at home. Honestly I COULD live like this, but I'm paying them for internet. I should be able to have internet if I am PAYING for it. Thusly, as of the beginning of July I will be moving into Pi Beta Phi. They have internet there.

In other news, my best tv is totally ruined. Cindy, Ryan, Sean, and I were watching a movie and all of a sudden we heard popping. The screen started going fuzzy so we turned it off. A couple minutes later we turned it on and it continued popping and then died. RIP my lovely TV. Let this be a lesson to you all: NEVER EVER even THINK about plugging in ANYTHING without a surge protector. I thought it'd be okay until I found one later, but nope. Ben said he'll help me pay for a flat-screen or something. Anything that will play dvd's on a screen that's at least bigger than my head. I'm actually thinking about trying craigslist... you never know, I might get lucky and find a nice plasma screen for only a hundred dollars! If I can secure one of those I'm going to try and get my hands on a Xbox 360. Still want one, yes. Maybe Xbox will come out with something new and my brother will just give me his when he buys the new system. I can hope, right?

On a more positive note: I found this absolutely incredible bread at safeway! It's wheat with chopped nuts baked into it. It is just SO good. Makes for some of the best peanut butter and jelly sandwiches that I've ever had (besides the kinds with my dad's jam, obviously). Also, Twinings Lady Grey Tea is amazing! The other day I needed some cash so instead of going to the ATM (which charges about the price of a box of tea to withdraw money...or at least last time I did) I went to safeway to actually get some tea and they just take money out if you put in your debit number. ANYWAY. I tastes like a lighter version of Earl Grey (possibly why this is LADY Grey) but has this kind of cookie aftertaste. You know those...vanillaish keebler cookies where you have the two vanilla cookies with some sort of really sweet, creamy stuff in the middle? Kind of tastes like that. Made me crave those like no other!

Also went to the Farmer's Market. Bought my Dad some of this Salsa which, until July, is some of the spiciest salsa on this side of the country. That is his father's day present from me. The lady was really nice and actually gave me her sample bag of roasted peppers to go with it. She told me he won't have any hair by the end of it.

Also bought some a-sparrow's-guts and a basket of cherries. The cherries were awesome and are gone now, though I haven't had time to actually cook myself some of the asparagus (sp?! goodness I'm lost without spell-check).

 

Anyway, I better be off and actually get my thermo homework done so I won't have to do it on Tuesday (my only day off for another week).

Cheers

For the past couple weeks I've been living at my parents' house. It has been weird because it doesn't feel like home to me because what was my room has turned into mine and my dad's room (my dad snores so loud that he can't sleep with my mom...). It's been kinda hectic going from babysitting to working at Pier One back to Aurora just to do it again the next day.

Pier One has been giving me a lot of hours. This is both good and bad... Lots of people have left: Kim, Sherri, Bessie, and now Holly. Farah is going to India to visit her family there for a few months. No one knows if Jessica is going to come back. She got injured in February and still hasn't been back to work. Brittany is going to school at CSU in the fall, so she'll be gone as soon as summer is over. Needless to say, we need people. I've offered to work more hours until the end of summer so that Bonnie has time to find more people. There is a Racheal that starts work today. Hopefully she'll stay a while.

Tonight I'm going back to Golden, finally. Though, I came back on Friday and spent the night. It was weird because since Michelle and Jason have been living there by themselves, they've kind of made it just their place. The kitchen has been taken over by recycling and Jason's kitchen things. I made a little room in the fridge for my things, and I put bread on the shelf which I think I've unofficially had for my stuff the entire year.
Went to the Parade and Celebration for Golden's 150th birthday. It was pretty awesome! Good cake too... Lots of free stuff.

Later, we re-arranged the stuff in the house because I thought it was about time for a change. My television is now in the kitchen area where the table used to be. After arranging Cindy, Kirk, Blair, Sean, and I watched Taken. I've seen that movie so many times, but it is always just as good. Michelle and Jason were out...I think bowling? Until about eleven, maybe ten. Didn't really talk to them much. The way it goes I guess.

Found out the internet wasn't working. That was kind of... upsetting. Especially because I start summer school next week and one of my books is online... Really need that fixed.

Packed up lots of my kitchen stuff. I think glassware will be next. Leave plates til near the end of my stay there.

Parents want me to move out of that house and into the sorority house that first week in July. Dad's taking off that week and says he wants to take my larger things (desk and such) out of there. May or may not be a good idea. They say they'll pay for those extra few weeks, but they don't have money and I know it so... I don't know. We'll see.

Looking into buying Kirk's Xbox 360 off of him. Get Xbox live to play with Kacie (<3!) which would be AWESOMELY FUN but horridly time-consuming. We'll see how well-off I am by the time Fall Semester comes around. Working so many shifts at Pier One will really be a great help though. No joke.

Went to Riley's Birthday yesterday. It was fun, and I saw a ton of people I haven't seen in forever. I love the Cuevas Family. They kind of rock.

Well, taking advantage of internet while I still have it so I better get to my pre-class reading.

Cheers!

So I somewhat did what my mom said and today I applied for two internships. One in Utah and one in Maryland.

GOOGLESEARCHDON'TFAILMENOW.

Not that I have anything else to do ANYWAY. Since they blocked EVERYTHING.

And the phones changed so they are all...weird. I don't know. People are all "I've been on the line twenty minutes" and I'm all "sorry! It doesn't even show me you called! D:!"

On the plus side though, I've spent time with Ben and his family (at least his brothers) AND I got to sleep in on Saturday. YAY! I'm pretty sure this isn't my brother's or sister's break so unfortunately I probably won't be able to spend much time with them except for tonight and maybe tomorrow night if I decide to stay there. Maybe I should stay another night- if anything, for my brother's sake. He did kinda just stick up for me the other day.
My siblings are becoming exponentially cooler as they get older/more mature. Thank goodness.

I'm pretty excited for habitat for humanity on wednesday! I've always wanted to do it, but I just haven't ever been able to. On that note: I need work gloves. Considering what I want to do with my life, it would probably be a good idea to have them anyways. And probably need to find sturdy shoes, because my tennis shoes are falling apart/ made out of cloth instead of leather.

Also: Initiation for Pi Phi in a few weeks! :D
Also, Also: APO is only a few steps from being a chapter! :DD
Also, Also, Also: Sean's parents okayed us using their cabin in Bailey! Retreat for APO after all! :DDD

Also, Also, Also, Also: I still need to get fellowship paperwork done x.x damn.

BUT! In minerology Rebecca, Kristin (sp?!) and I have decided to start a study group. Once a week (or more depending on material) from like 7-9pm in the lab classroom. Hopefully I can pull my grade up. UGH. I hate/love that class so much.

Oh. Need to study statics as well. I wish I didn't suck at it and that he would give us a review because that is what helped me do well on the previous exam. Jackass, saying we needed to study just the class problems and not a guide. WHAT IF THAT IS HOW I STUDY, EH? EVER THINK OF THAT YOU... ANGRY JERKFACE?! /fail.

just hope I don't fail. I really can't afford to fail.

The trip to Dove Creek was awesome!
A much needed time away from the busy life.
I had an early flight, departure at 8:15. Got to the airport VERY early so once I was at my gate I just sat and read a book. There was this guy next to me (next meaning he sat two seats away) that was waiting for his granddaughter to arrive. Apparently the last time he had seen her was when she was seven, now she's fourteen. Crazy.
Read the rest of my book (A Christmas Carol) on the plane. It was really short, but very good. Growing up I've always watched A Muppet Christmas Carol with my brother all throughout the season so whenever there was a part I recognized the songs played in the back of my head. It was awesome.

Got to Cortez Municipal Airport and was met by my grandparents, cousin Brenda, and Aunt and Uncle. My Aunt and Uncle were only there for the laptop I carried in my suitcase (which was theirs, but... really guys? Aren't you glad I'm here?). Got to my grandparent's house. They installed new flooring in the kitchen and part way into the living room. Re-painted as well.
Most of the time I was there I was just hanging out. My other Aunt and Uncle visited often (their business has yet to be moved out of my grandparent's basement...) and Maranda made a surprise visit! Saw my Aunt Michelle briefly.
It was snowing a LOT. Roads were horrible. We only went into town twice, both times I brought my phone because I don't get service at my grandparent's house and I needed to check messages just in case work called BUT I don't know my voicemail password so I couldn't... Stupid T-mobile.

The last full day I was there my grandma taught me how to crochet! I had quite a bit done but I was unhappy with it so I unraveled it and started again. I'm gonna make a scarf and then I'll send it to my grandparents. It'll be awesome. However, I need to find my hook that is hidden in my house somewhere, or I'll have to buy new ones. I'm thinking I'll just go to walmart and get some after Christmas...
Anyway. Time comes for me to leave.  Left an hour earlier than we needed to just in case the road to Cortez was bad. It was. When we got to the airport I got all checked in and sat down. At first there weren't many people, then this bus FULL of people comes and it was really loud. The lady says the plane that left at 4:17 (the time that I was supposed to leave according to MY TICKET) was ACTUALLY for the people who just got bussed there from Telluride. I was... pretty pissed. They didn't know where the plane I was supposedly supposed to get on was or if it even was supposed to come in. They check all the Telluride people into the plane. I call my dad saying to not go to the airport because I don't even know if I'm going to be leaving that day (which really pissed me off because I was supposed to work the next day!). All of a sudden they are like "Passengers on the Cortez flight, go through security. We're putting you on this plane". So I say goodbye to my grandparents and cousin, almost crying like I always do when I have to leave, and go to the security line. Lady in front of me is unorganized, and has three trays worth of stuff to put on the plane.
Finally get onto the plane. It's literally full. No extra seats. As I buckle my seatbelt the other plane comes in right next to us. Great.
They take half an hour to de-ice the plane. I call my dad and tell him to continue heading to the airport. They got me on a plane.
Had nothing to do on the plane because they don't allow you to use electronics because it is such a small plane and anything WILL mess with the navigation equipment (though I'm pretty sure it's just for wireless devices).  ANYWAY. Got there, met my dad.

Went home. Did laundry and hung out with my family.
Mom was in pain and on meds. Brother and Sister were bouncy and hyper. Erik and I will be decorating a gingerbread man hopefully on this saturday.

Made my excuses and went over to see Ben. Watched them (being Takashi and Ben, Chris was watching and playing on his laptop) play a video game for a while, then watched Forbidden Kingdom with Ben. Er. Went to bed. Woke up and was on the computer for a bit. Tried to sleep again, was successful for an hour then I woke up again, this time for good. Hung around with Ben and Chris. We went to Wendy's and then it started to pellet snow. AND WE SAW LIGHTENING IN THE SNOW. Then I got toilet paper and dropped Ben and Chris off at their house. Got on the highway and NO ONE CAN DRIVE IN THE SNOW OMG. Took almost two hours to get home. Called my mom while I was at a standstill. She was mis-diagnosed at the ER. She couldn't work due to pain one day so I took her there. She hurt on her right side (this is important to say) and they took an ultrasound and said it was because of a cyst. They gave her pain meds. It wouldn't stop hurting even with oxycodine so she went to the doctor and they took a look at her ultrasound. They asked what side it hurt on, she says right. "So the pain has switched sides?" "No...". The cyst was on her LEFT ovary. LEFT. They're doing tests to see what else it could be- they're thinking she tore a muscle. YAY.

Er. What else?
Schedule for the next couple weeks:
Today:
-Pier One 6:30pm-10:30pm
Saturday:
-Metro Brokers 8:30am-12:30pm
-Pier One 6:30pm-10:30pm
Sunday:
-Pier One 4pm-8pm
Monday:
-Pier One 8pm-11pm
Tuesday:
-Pier One 12pm-4pm
Wednesday
-Pier One 2pm-6:30pm
Thursday
-CHRISTMAS KOMG
Friday
-Pier One 8am-12pm
Saturday
-Metro Brokers 8:30am-12:30pm
-NO PIER ONE!OMG!!!11!

so next week is a 24 hour work week. Not bad. But busy x.x
I have also cleaned my room (finally!)!
It's good to be home.

I don't know if I should say anything seeing as this could not only ruin now, but could also ruin my future.

Cryptic, I know. I just don't want to outright say anything because apparently I don't know what I want. I know what everyone else wants, but what about me? Frankly, I'm tired of making bad choices for myself.

This is a problem even watching youtube videos of Rob Thomas cannot fix.

In other news, I haven't updated in a while! Therefore, I must update you.
Last monday night I went with Ben to the Break and Repair Method concert (I guess it was ACTUALLY Matt Nathanson's but...whatever Matt). I MET Paul Doucette. I texted cindy and michelle about it but they didn't really give me the reaction I wanted considering they know how in love with Matchbox Twenty I am. But I MET him. I have a picture of me with him, but I am lazy and don't want to post it.

Failed Macro exam. Got 80 on the Geo exam. I'm stressing. I need money.

Ugh. this doesn't even hold a candle to everyones recent updates. I just don't know what I can or cannot say. Shouldn't care, I know, but I do.

I'm pondering life and where I want to end up. I want a life that is moving like a good song. I want a love that keeps me strong. I want a house with a hundred acres of land. I want to feel like I'm doing something worth my while. I want friends that are here to stay.
I want to be a rock; and anchor. I want to hold it together.
I want some space and time.
But really, what I want most of all is to be happy with my own life.

Everything just sucks.

That's all.


I'm particularly bitter and want to stab all those couples walking down the street holding hands. Three in the past five minutes.

I. Don't know what to do with myself. I suppose that when school starts I'll have something to do so it won't be so bad.


BUT STILL.

I want love. Maybe Jen will come over and cuddle with me. I'm pretty sure that that would make me feel better.

My hug quota is to the level of "DESPERATELY NEEDING" and the love count is at "DWINDLING"

This is the most delicious latte I have ever tasted. Higher Grounds is amazing.

So yesterday I went over to stephanie's house. We watched In Bruges, which was awesomely weird and had a bunch of people from Harry Potter in it (Fleur, Moody, and VOLDEMORT! I don't know their actual names so...forgive me forgive me). It was awesome. I'm planning on hanging out with her again sometime to finish watching movies we rented.

Today I am supposed to hang out with caley. I hope that doesn't fall through, because I miss her!

Work is...getting boring. I don't have anything to do really in between the cores I see, so I'm just...sitting here. It's rather lame, actually. It's like last year all over again.
I'm thinking about taking tomorrow off. Er. Calling in "sick".
The only reason I'm typing this at work is because I know they don't monitor it. Thank you IT for teaching me this.

I drove into work today. My dad took today off because he was "feeling sick" and so it's completely natural that I would "feel sick" soon since I spend so much time with him.

Mom will yell at me, no doubt, because I need the money. Yes, I do. BUT, I'm flipping tired. I haven't taken a day off yet (except for family vacation), and compared to how many days I took off last year (between the few odd half days and the couple full days) I'm pretty sure I'll be fine.

Pier 1 hasn't called back yet. I'm kind of...upset. They said they'd call back. I sent them a thank you letter... Oh well. There's always target. From what I hear, they always need new people (high turnover, methinks?). Once we're there, I'll apply to Starbucks and Barnes and Noble as well. Plus any other place in there I can find. I'm not picky, I just need a job. PLEASE?!

Leaving at 4:30 today because I'm driving home and I hate traffic. I'd leave at 4, but that is almost irresponsible and I don't want to come off that way.

Is it sad that I've been counting the hours down since noon?
ugh!

So I hope July 12th is good for everyone. Yes? Good. Three O'clock. Mansfield Park. Excellent. Good.

So last night I went and visited Sam. It was nice to be able to talk to her again! Yeah, I know I could have totally called her, but I'm horrible with phones. We all know this. So, I told myself I'll be going over at least once a week to help out if I can with little miss Riley.

She's adorable.

Yeah, but I can totally wait for one, though. Considering my genetics it would be in my best interest to wait at least ten years >.>

yay twins.

Stayed there until about ten-ish.
Filled up the car with gas. SIXTY DOLLARS. /sigh.
At least I know more than the general public and know not to blame the government SO very much. We're getting a deal for what it should actually be going at.
Thoughiftheyopeneddrillinginalaskawe'dhaveabitmoreoil...

Got back and was online for about...half an hour.
Austin got his package, which is excellent.
Talked with Caley, who is going to Texas with Chris this weekend for a wedding? right? wedding?

Oh! Last night I also found I was elligable for an extra 2,000 in loans. I accepted, because that takes so much off of my shoulders. Estimated cost of tuition this year: $11,000.
It's funny, I decided I wanted my computer to be in U.K. English rather than U.S. English, and all the dollar signs turn into pounds.

ugh, and my cousin gets to go to Europe. I am...extremely jealous.

Well, that's about it. That's life. 

( My thoughts of Mansfield Park thus far... ) 

That's it. There isn't anymore.

The last few days have been somewhat hectic for me.
Friday I slept all afternoon after I took some allergy medication. Kept waking up after two. Not surprising as all the dreams after that dealt with dissappointment and death.
Funny how that's a normal dream.

Saturday I woke up earlier than I needed to and took my time eating and taking a shower. Got to work five minutes before I needed to be there. It was freezing in the new office. Our office just moved across the hall from where it was and it's a great deal smaller than the old place. We have this tiny desk- the size of two dormdesks put together- for two people. Karen is a larger woman too, so it was kind of difficult. My phone wasn't even ON the desk, and I had to move to get it every time it rang.
Karen told me that she told Kristin to call me first whenever she needed someone to take over for her. That was really nice of her to do that, though since she lives on her own and already has a pretty nice job, I guess she doesn't really NEED the money.
Left at twelve thirty. Got home and cleaned a bit before Stephanie came over. She came over at three and we watched POTC3. Abbreviated because I can't spell properly today >.<
Caley called a bit after...eight I think? Asked if I wanted to hang out. Told her Steph was there, but she said she didn't mind because she knew Stephanie (I think they were in girl scouts together before?). We went to Southlands to meet them (them being Caley, Chris, and Takashi). Caley was kind of hurt that I went to Sex and the City already. Still going with her today though, because I promised.
Takashi kept pointing out my nose. It really makes me uncomfortable. Not only do I have this impression that it's pretty big (people say it's not, so I'm assuming it's just something I'm really self conscious of...but you never know)but I've been breaking out particularly in that area so I just don't want people to point it out.
I don't know, I don't know. Maybe I just need to get over it.

gdf,jgsl
Today I feel better than yesterday- almost didn't have to take any allergy medicine. Did anyway, since I'm working. For lunch: oatmeal (since it's cold in here) and some fruit. Excellent.

You know what I hate? Real Estate offices with numbers as their office ID. Then the realtors spew it all out and then when you ask them to repeat it they get this frustrated tone to their voice. Rawr.

That is... about it. Yeah.

Nothing much to really say about today.

Didn't do too much, happily. I woke up around eight, and walked about the house for a while. Watched the end of a movie called "someone like you" with Ashley Judd and ... Hugh Jackman? I think so. Made me feel particularly mushy for most of the day.

Had peanut butter on toast, twice, a bowl of cereal, and 1 and a half servings of dinner. Went for a walk/jog. Mostly speed-walk like I usually do to walk around school and stuff.

Watched Sense and Sensibility. Once I'm finished with the book I'm on, I'm starting that book. I actually really like Jane Austen. Before I had tried to read Pride and Prejudice, but I just couldn't get into it... I guess with enough willpower you can do anything.

Had five diet pepsi's today. Not very happy about it, but...my head has been hurting all day when I don't drink some. Time to cut myself off, right?

Apparently one of the drug tests, mine or my brother's, has something wrong with it. Because mom checked messages at like...seven, we can't call the office. It's closed.
I'm slightly pissed because if it is mine, I start work on MONDAY. MONDAY. What is tomorrow? FRIDAY. Are doctor's offices open on Saturdays? NO.
It shouldn't be mine, because I don't drink or do drugs and all I took that day was midol...but you never know.

Ugh. Just been in a lousy mood most of the week. Only times I haven't felt too horridly bad this week were when I was hanging out with Caley and Josh. Maybe it's just being alone. Usually I have someone to take a walk with me or do SOMETHING with. Here, I'm in the middle of fucking nowhere. If I want to go to a friend's house I have to DRIVE there. Thanks mum and dad for choosing a house in the middle of KANSAS. UGH.

On the bright side, I'm going to breakfast with Ben tomorrow. He works at night, and gets off at eight in the morning so I figured since I get up then...we could go out to breakfast. Plus I can't rightly go over to his house, unfortunately.
I just can't bring myself to do it. Caley suggested going over there the other day, but I can't do it. Not with HIM there. Especially after everything that has happened, I'd just claw his eyes out or something.
I hate him.

Hate.
Seethe.

It's sad, but that's how it is. I don't want to cause rifts with them in that house, so I am just going to avoid it. If Chris reads this anymore...I just hope he understands. I just can't.




Honestly, the only reason I'm actually updating is because for some reason AIM isn't working. I've tried to get on, but it says it can't find the server. Also, the website is down (or so says my internet) so... yeah. No AIM express...

BLEH.

Oh, and got a financial aid warning today. Because I dropped below full-time student status, if I don't get my act together by the end of next semester, I'm not getting ANY financial aid. OHBOY.

I stress way too easily. And, you know, it doesn't help that my mom tells me all of their financial woes. She's just trying to talk to me, I know, but it just stresses me out. I can't help their situation so I'm like "omgmyfamilyisgoingtostarve" and stuff like that. Then I have my own situation to worry about as well. Though, since I don't have to pay for room and board I might actually have enough money for myself next year. As long as shopping is at a minimum...I'll be good. Eat ramen or something, right?

Updating before michelle kills me.

So the last few days have been filled with reading and... lazing. On wednesday I spent most of the day enjoying my time alone. At dinner I told my mom Ben was coming over. She seemed to have a fit, but grandma cut her off and was like "she's been alone at school for about a year, if she hasn't done anything in that time I don't think she'll do anything now. Anyway, we'll be right downstairs"

So my mom thinks I'm a slut... still.

The next day Ben came over. We made a cake and it was DELICIOUS. We tried to watch Enchanted, but it sucked hardcore. Sooooo, we hung a bit, but that was about it. Had to take him home after I picked up Erik so Amy wouldn't start whining about having people over. My mom finally heard me coughing and was like "take these!". they are these little gel capsules that actually really work well on coughs. Unfortunately they make me super tired. I was supposed to do something with Caley, but I PASSED OUT and slept until ten the next morning.

Yesterday I spent most of the day reading. Strike that, all day reading. My cough has been getting better but... ugh. Still sucked. It was nice though, not having anyone around. As soon as Erik and Amy came home, I went and sat outside to read because they were being WAY too loud. Michelle across the street saw me and was like "babysit for me please!" and I was all "okay!"

It was cute. We were watching the Fairly Odd Parents musical thing... and Wanda was singing how she loved Cosmo and Rory was all "how old are you, Rachel?" And I told him, nineteen. "What is nineteen minus five?" fourteen. "So it will be fourteen years till I catch up to you?" Yeah. "I'm going to love you forever, Rachel!"

It was adorable. My five-year-old boyfriend loves me XD


Today I just worked...Nothing really exciting.
I have been talking to Austin off and on. Good I guess, right?


Lately I've really been into watching Sex and the City. Really odd... I used to avoid that show.
I guess I just didn't relate to it at all because I was always home, didn't do anything, only dated one guy (if you could call it dating- we rarely went out anywhere), and didn't care how I looked.
Now I kinda still don't care how I look, but I have more freedom to do things. /nod

I found out yesterday that Chris is working with Eric, by the way. It's crazy how I have to learn all this through other people. I didn't know he had a job! Bah. Whatever, whatever.

Today has been a combination of snow and rain and sun. Oh Colorado, how I love thee

Because we were bored (and just wanted to be with the guys) we (Lisa, Laura, Andrea, and I) all went downstairs. We said we were bored, and they let us watch star trek with them

I don't think I'll ever admit this to my dad BUT I actually kind of liked it.



OR! maybe I will and it'll be our new bonding thing- since my brother stole him away from me with video games.

But it was fun. We got there roughly around 11:11 pm, and I'm here at 1:11 typing this up.

Those guys are so fun! 


Dude.

I'm both excited and not excited to be out of here in two weeks. On one hand, I won't have classes anymore. On the other, many of my friends (whom I have now lived with for a year) will be back in their respective states. Yeah, there are phones, mailboxes, and internet- it's just not the same.

Also, I am quite determined to get Sean to like me (if he doesn't already?!). I have only two weeks to woo him and then he goes back to Texas.

/sigh

Texas though? Seriously. I'm almost hesitant because of the distance thing, but I'm not entirely sure he's coming back next year. He was talking about transferring to Texas A&M because of their lax chemistry prerequisites.

I suppose just try asking him out again and seeing where it goes from there? Dude, I'm just so sick of waiting for him to make a move. jdofksidjklkjsa;


Exactly.


The deal for today:

• Study calculus
• Eat dinner- preferably around six
• Take calculus test
• Study Physics

Things I am thankful for:

• Excellent timing of yesterday
• Having nearly $50 left on my blastercard
• Having fun
  
• Having the room to myself for a bit
• Michelle did dishes ?!

And Caley just told me that Eric moved into Chris' house. /sigh.
Hopefully he'll be gone when I visit them when I get out of school. hopehopehopehopehope
I wish chris answered his phone once in a while. I've tried calling him at least once a week for the past few weeks and then nothing. /moresigh

so I finally got my phone charged and I get a text from Christina asking if I'm mad at her


I feel kind of terrible for not talking to her for so long...
I'm not mad at her, I just can't handle my friends at all.


BLAH

so I asked if she's doing anything on friday.

But I still feel horrible...

So after the failure of last friday I'm somewhat at a loss for confidence.

Last week I had decided to go ahead and ask Sean out to dinner or something like that. He has calculus with me, so I thought it'd be alright. Just catch up to him after class is out and go ahead and ask.

Unfortunately for me, he wasn't there! Just my luck, right?

In other news, it's supposed to snow/rain here today. I don't like this. It has been nice the past couple days, and then the clouds just HAVE to come in and ruin it. bah!
Took a short walk with andrea yesterday.
Apparently there was drama here over the weekend. One of the girls was caught with jello shots in her room. Now, they didn't search her room or anything, she just left them in the middle of the friggen floor. This one guy that doesn't go here admitted that they were his, so she didn't get kicked out- but she got written up.

but she didn't even try and hide them! policemen patrol the halls sometimes and she must have just kept the door open for them to see it because there is no way they would have been able to tell otherwise.

the lesson here: if you're going to drink underage, and on a dry campus, close your door.

Thank you.

Last night I found I didn't have to do Lon Capa for physics. This made me happy. Instead I watched The Princess Bride. Erin and Liz joined me around the middle of the movie. Michelle finally got back, and the movie was finished. Then we watched Robin Hood: Men in Tights. We gained Laurel and then Andrea and Lisa at one point.
We chatted it up until almost midnight- then went to bed.
Michelle was up talking with (at?!) me for a while. I kinda fell asleep in the middle of the conversation.

Surprisingly that is the best night sleep that have had in a while. Don't know why. I'm friggen tired right now, but I feel relaxed. So it's all good.


Ican'twaituntilcalculus. :D

Looking at everyone's rather long updates made me feel bad about not updating, so that is what I am doing now, starting with about a week ago.

So, not last weekend but the weekend before it I went on a date with Ben. He took me to this theater on the outskirts of Cherry Creek Mall. It seemed to be the only place where Juno was playing (a movie about this girl who gets pregnant and gives her child to this couple who is just...too perfect). The Mayan Theater, which is the only "Bar with a theater". It was small and pretty cramped. I kept kicking the seat in front of me (I cross and uncross my legs a LOT during movies). The movie was pretty darn hilarious though, so it was alright.

Afterwards we were trying to find a place to eat (it was like...tenish) so we went to Village Inn, which is always open. We stayed there about an hour after we had finished our meals just talking. He's a pretty interesting guy.

During the week, I got to hang out a lot with Caley. Unfortunately I had to pick up my siblings all the time, so it kind of killed a lot of things we could have done. Went to Chris's house a lot. He gave me a Christmas present- a shirt that says "got geology" and the book I've been wanting for...a long time. Also gave me another thing, but it's an inside joke.

On Monday (or I think it was Monday?) Caley, Takashi, Nick, and I went to Zoo Lights. It was freaking amazing. They do an EXCELLENT job lighting that place up. We saw the fire show, which was horridly choreographed, but that's okay. The little kids were amazed at the different colored flames (there was orange, purple, blue, and red I think). I was all giddy because I know why they are different colors :D.

Tuesday night we stayed at Chris's house playing Halo. I have only played it once, and those guys were not very informative on what controls are which so I surmised that it was too hard for me. I actually wasn't half bad this time around. Well, for a beginner.

On Thursday Caley came over with Takashi (I can never put the emphasis on the right syllable for his name) and Craig. Caley is now addicted to Sims 2 and was playing it on my computer with my input here and there. Craig and Takashi were gaping at my mountain of legos (we have three HUGE boxes FULL TO THE BRIM of them). They took one box home with them, and I went to pick up my brother.

Nothing of note happened on Friday besides me making a hella lot of cookies and visiting Michelle and Cindy at DQ.

Saturday I worked. It was so slow that Karen just told me to leave. She got me a gift, and I felt bad because I didn't get her anything. Unlike Chris and everyone else whom I have been PLANNING on getting presents, I hadn't even thought of Karen : /.

Ben took me out at around two. We went to see the Titanic Exhibit, which I had been DYING to see since it heard about it this summer. It was pretty freaking sweet just to see that so much of the stuff on the ship was still there even after so many years of sitting at the bottom of the ocean. We got there and we were told we were in the last group. Lucky us. That group didn't go in until 5:30, so we got tickets into the main museum and moseyed around for three and a half hours. We actually got our places in line quite accidentally. We got to the other side of the museum, and didn't know how to get back so we went through the Colorado part of the museum which coincidentally was turned into half of the Titanic exhibit.
We then went to Casa Bonita. I was thrown off because I had never gone there from Downtown. It was alright. The food is never really good at all, and the entertainment was mediocre, so we left about an hour after we got there. He was happy that he got to see it though. He's been wanting to see it ever since I told him it really existed.
After that, we saw Sweeney Todd. It was pretty awesome. I kind of wanted to know what happened to his daughter after the end, but besides that the ending was also excellent. When we got out I saw Stephanie, so we technically saw it together like we planned. She's going to California and will be back the 30th.

All of the weekend was taken up by shopping and stuff. I hate shopping for other people by the way. It's so hard to find the right gift. Some people just say "get them a gift card" but unless they really wanted a gift card in the first place, I have a hard time doing that.
At five, we went to Church for the Christmas Eve service. It was a candle-lit one, which was slightly dangerous. My clothes I wore that night still smell of extinguished candles.
Went to a thing at Caley's house for dinner. It was good food. I felt kind of out of place though. Maybe I'm just awkward in larger groups. Ben gave me this really awesome puzzle thing, but someone took it to play with it and I don't know where it went after that. I was very disappointed in myself for that. I wanted to show it to my brother and see if he could get it. : /

Yesterday (Christmas) was rather uneventful. It's the first Christmas we've had with my grandparents living downstairs, and it was actually quite nice. No one left the house, and we were all nice and cozy.
I got a lot of good stuff. Basically, guys, when move out happens I have ALL the kitchen supplies. Well, besides a microwave...but everything else! Even a waffle iron!
My grandparents got me a necklace with an R on it, and ten dollars in quarters. My parents got me loads. A crock pot (great for making stew in), a set of pots and pans (with extra cookie sheets!), Sims2 Bon Voyage, the Holy Hand Grenade of Antioch, books (The Empress, The Girl Who Played Go, The Confederacy of Dunces, Slaughterhouse Five, and The Kommandant's Girl) socks, used Nintendo DS, and used Pokemon Pearl (which is all good, they work perfectly). Oh! and I got rechargable batteries for my camera specifically, so when Michelle takes pictures we won't have to replace the batteries every ten minutes! Excellent, right?
Spent most of the day after that playing Sims. I must admit, I'm kind of tired of Sims for now.

Today! I spent the majority of my time in bed playing Pokemon Pearl and reading To Save Fish From Drowning. There is absolutely nothing on television, not even snapped. There are still Christmas specials on, which makes me wonder- do some people say Santa comes on Christmas night, not the night of Christmas eve?
But yes, relaxing day.

My brother has taken to singing "Milkshake" and it creeps me out.

Also, the discontinued my Lemon Ice toothpaste D:! I am very disappointed.


p.s. Ben is 25

Tonight I plan on working on Calculus (no, really!).
I actually did the Solidworks practice exam. It was actually fairly easy...I only questioned myself twice and then I fixed the problem. Excellent.

I'm feeling rather ill. I don't know if it's just the cold weather coming in or that I'm stressed (or maybe I'm really sick?!) but it makes me not feel like doing anything except sleeping. I slept for ten hours the other night (plus a little because I also took a nap) so I know my problem is not lack of sleep. A theory I've come up with is that I'm not being active enough. Therefor, I am going to actually work out (wtf, right?) and Cindy agreed to go with me tonight so I'm excited!

I covered the television so I wouldn't be tempted to watch it, and it's actually working! House is on tonight (just in case you didn't know) so it will have to be moved, but that's fine.

someone just called for Rob? okay...

Um... there really isn't much going on.

It's funny though. There are times when I decide that I'm going to give up on guys, then all of a sudden there is one that ends up being interested in me. I become infatuated (because it's easy for me to do so) and then they are like "oh, sorry. not what I'm looking for". Well, what were you looking for? seriously. Obviously there was something about me that you liked. I guess it's a perception problem.
Whatever.

Taking airborne. ugh. HATE this stuff, but it is supposedly works so... I guess it's worth it.


&lt;3 XD

Reserved camping spot. It is spot 95 on the Gottonwood Grove Loop. Pull through (I hate backing into places...) max of two cars. no electricity, and the bathrooms are pretty far off- but no one else is reserving the spots on the sides of us (as of right now) so we'll pretty much be alone. Awesome.

and I need to find wrapping paper or colored pencils.


Remember to buy:
Bananas
marshmellows
hot dogs


Remember to ask Chris/Ben to bring:
wood

Michelle freaks out when there is a lack of posting, by the way.

Nothing too much is going on.
There is a camping trip planned for the first week in october. Warm enough to not be hot yet cold enough to be awesome. Confirmed participants are as follows: Caley, myself, Josh, Ben, and Chris.
It will be great


Date with Josh on Friday. We're going to the corn maze at Botanic Gardens. It's going to be great. I can't wait.

I was going to spend the night at the Allen Residence, but my mom just had her appendix taken out, and they really want to see me. This weekend, family is first. Sorry guys.
Well, on Monday I got a call from dad and he had to pick up Amy from the ER. I thought she just had an accident (like she does...a lot) but it ended up that my mom had a cat scan and they found that her appendix was on the wrong side of her body. Later it exploded.

Yay.

Mum called me and was sounding so horrid.So...yeah.




But camping, guys. Camping.

I'm in a lot of pain right now, and I don't know why. It's odd.




Rawr.
I'm so excited for the weekend, you have no idea though. SLEEP IN. HELL YEAH.