Making a Change:

I'm doing better this week with studying and doing assigned work. Any improvement is better than nothing, right?
Last week we had a Physics test and Chemistry test, this week there is an Earth test and a Calculus test. Earth I think I'll do okay on, since this is like the third year I've heard this stuff. Calculus is a different story. She just DOESN'T teach very well. If I went to class and participated I SHOULD be able to get at least a C, but it doesn't work that way in her class because she says that we should be learning on our own, she just reinforces it.
Dude, I freaking pay her so much money. She SHOULD be teaching me, not the book.

SIGH.

So after Earth I'll be studying for my calculus test tomorrow (aka doing the assigned homework the RIGHT way).

Cindy wants me to go to the movie hosted by the international...club. Three Weddings and a Funeral I think? Four weddings and a funeral it says. It says it's at seven, but I already said I'd help with Valentines at eight...

So I guess I can't go to the movie.

Definitely feeling better this week though.

Finished The Last Empress. It was a pretty good book, though I almost feel as if I should have reread Empress Orchid before it because the two are so intertwined.
Now I'm reading A Confederacy of Dunces, and the first chapter was pretty funny. It's about this thirty year old who still lives with his mother, but insists that he better than everyone else around. He's like an overgrown kid, and he's a germaphobe. Quite a character I say. He almost got arrested, and I still don't know why.

After this book I'll read...The Street of a Thousand Blossoms.
Indeed.


I don't know if I'm going to go work out tonight, because Michelle won't be here and I'm not sure Cindy will want to go if she's seeing that movie at seven. It's no fun if you go by yourself, let me tell you. I don't know what I'm going to do when we eventually leave each other because I won't want to go because it'll just be me. I guess I could meet new people?

Meeting new people is nerve-wreaking though. Or at least for me. It's always been like that. There was this one time in middle school when I went to Church Camp for a week. It was fun I guess. I was good friends with this one girl and we roomed together but then she met new people and just stopped talking to me altogether. So most of the time I just went to the craft table and kayaked by myself. At the end she was like "I was just trying to get you to make new friends."
Thanks, friend, thanks.

Whatever.

Anyway.
Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, but more importantly: Rob Thomas' Birthday. :D
I guess I should get ready for physics- unless I can convince Andrea to go to the next one...but Regina is there saving our seats so I guess I'll go. psh.

"There is a wonder in reading Braille that the sighted will never know: to touch words and have them touch you back."- Jim Fiebig

So today was a kind of "relax" day (excepting the mother getting all pissy over the date of the spa day).

First eight or so hours of the day were spent watching television and movies. The rest was spent reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.

I love that book.
Today I have already gone through more than half of the book.

Tomorrow we shall pick up my siblings and at 2:50 we are seeing Harry Potter in the theater. Christina had called me asking if I wanted to go with her and Gloria to the same movie on the same day so I was like "hey, why don't you just go with my family and I?"

We took advantage of a internet mistake and got into the movies at 6 dollars each. ha. take that fandango.

My gums are...quite swollen today. I'm really dreading going into public like this tomorrow, which supposedly is the worst day. But...meh. In a month I won't be seeing many of these people so it really isn't worth it to avoid them.

I'm still debating on whether or not to call Sean. I don't know. It's just sometimes I come off as overly obsessive and I REALLY don't want to scare him off. I mean, even if he doesn't want to go out with me, it's still hella fun to hang out with him. You know?

Wait a week (that way almost all swelling will be down as well!).

Thinking of going over some chemistry notes and stuff. After that two, I'm really questioning my abilities.
Really. That killed a lot of my self-esteem right there.

GOODNESS my mouth feels like it's going to explode! ugh.
I really wish I was born without wisdom teeth. I was born with cracked front teeth, why not no wisdom teeth?

I am no longer wise.

ugh. and my teeth feel really gross! I tried brushing them, but I could barely open my mouth enough to get the tip of the toothbrush in. The anti-swelling stuff SUCKS. I've been gargling water and stuff, because we have none of that "low alcohol" mouthwash (maybe mix a LITTLE bit of regular stuff with a bunch of water? yes?).

This is really beyond disgusting. And it hurts. Like a bitch.

Great thing about books:
they take your mind off everything.

I really love reading.