Making a Change:

So Eric decided to IM me last night.

Generally when he does this he wants to brag about something (and I'm not being mean, it has happened every time). First it was his job, second it what his car, this time it was a girlfriend.

It kind of makes me angry.
This time I remembered to block him before he disappeared from my buddy list.

BLEH

Couldn't sleep last night. I tossed and turned for a good two hours before I finally fell asleep, then I kept waking up.
However, I have a good feeling about today. Today will be excellent.

I just woke myself up before I was late for school (late for me being on time for everyone else)

I should have woken up around 5:25, but instead woke up a few minutes before six.
Rachel is awesome.

/wiggle.

This feels like it is going to be another giddy day :D yay

Nothing of any real worth to say.
It's mostly just complaining about how Eric is being stupid.
How life is shitty.

that sort of thing.

I don't feel good. At all.

Nope nope.

I'll go to bed now, study in the morning. It works better that way anyway. Still getting up at five, just not going until eight thirty or so.

Only one more day until I won't see Eric again. Should I be happy? I...don't know.

I spent most of my high school career with him, with his ending now it's like taking off the training wheels. I mean, they were off balance so you COULD ride on your own, you just didn't want to. Left them there JUST IN CASE you hit a rock too hard and lost balance.

Maybe it was out of habit, like Sabrina said. Maybe I fell out of love with him a while ago and just refused to admit it.
But then why would I feel like I was stabbed in the gut?

I don't know.
Go to sleep Rachel.
Go to sleep.
Try and not dream tonight.


tomorrow will be fine. You will do well. Don't worry dear.

I think I'm okay now.
Allergy pills kicked in, and I'm groggy so to bed goes I!

I don't know if sleeping this much really is good for me (at least 24 hours alone in the past two days), but at least I'm sleeping, neh?

fourth day of christmas, guys.

You know that computer that was stolen from the ACS? It's been all over the news, you know


guess whose info is on there.

Mine.

that's crap : / my week was going good too.

Like the other night, I woke up and the moon was shining on my bed. I snuggled closer to the light and you know, that is the first night in years that I've actually gotten GOOD sleep. yep.

last night I started out the night WARM too. It was amazing.