Making a Change:

Today I started my new job. It was...interesting. I was so freaking tired I about passed out on my way home.

Haven't been sleeping quite right the past few nights. Kind of feel like those people jumping off the titanic in the movie...you know, no hope. But that's really just the tiredness talking. I need to get my arse to bed sometime soon.


Basically knew exactly what to do throughout the day so it was kind of boring at work. BUT it flew by. before I knew it my mom picked me up and we went and got milkshakes.

When we got home I decided to take a nap out back. took a pillow, a blanket, and my music and plopped down on the patio for a snooze. Woke up sometime around seven to people shooting off rockets RIGHT behind my effing house. gawd.

Mom is in a pissy mood, lord knows why.

I took generic allergy medicine. yay. I'll be out in about an hour or so...whenever it kicks in...

yup.
I have a feeling tomorrow is going to either really suck, or be really fantastic.

I hope it's really fantastic.
I hope.

I'm shaking.

I NEED to go to Dove Creek. Mom NEEDS to stop telling me no.

Have to get away. Need to get away.


Really, I can't take this. He's everywhere but no where. He won't go away.



There is no way I can keep living like this. I. Can't. Do. This.






Then on top of that, mom keeps having money talks with me. I'll fsking get a job. okay?

I don't even know what to say.

I'm just so tired. Taking a nap. I'm going to have to cancel plans with Caley this weekend due to the mines trip and babysitting. I feel bad, but if I make money we can go to barnes and noble and get cheesecake again. Or do other awesome things. Oh! buy her happy juice! fantastic! :DD

Visited Mr. Gonder at Sunrise. He was "very honored" to see me, so he said. His daughter is about my age.


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haunted friday! :D yay.

I'll make a more worth-while update when I'm not DYING.